7 Days..

This Craig David song was on Cat$ FM this morning. I actually tune in to this particular FM every morning while driving to work, coz of the good selection of songs by the morning DJs. But after 9 am, don't ever tune in to it! Boleh muntah dengar bahasa orang *ban and what not.

7 days.. to our 3rd wedding anniversary. Dah 3 years eh? How time does fly.. 3 years of meaningful journey, from Kertih to BTU and back to Kertih (soon!), pre-Ilham & post-Ilham... cheers to a grreat 3 years and more to come!

Spent the free cuti waking up late. Wanted to fast but changed my mind at 11 am coz lapar gila and I forced Uzey to buka pose as well so we can eat lunch together gether. Went out & bought Ilham a new pair of shoes. Masa kat kedai tu, everytime suruh dia test the shoes misti jalan pusing satu kedai and buat muka konfiden lak tu as if cam kasut tu dah memang dia punya. Took him to the beach in the evening, he had fun walking all over the place but when he suddenly noticed that ada budak tengah main air laut yang kaler longkang tu, he pratically run to the shore! Iskk.. dont la main air laut kat sini, tak best langsung! Had guests at nite, cooked macaroni + ciken soup though my initial plan was to cook Uzey's faveret kurma.

Am fasting today, hopefully can survive :) but before that, I need to curse that SoB first. Celaka punya orang tua, ko langsung tak tau ape benda ko kena buat eh? Tetiba nak main pass2 kat orang suka ati mak bapak kau je. Ko memang celaka go to hell, I cant wait to leave this place! Aku tak sanggup beb keje ngan orang cam kau lagi.. ^&#^$^&@@*!!!!!!


Cepatlaaa weekend...

Aiiiiyyy..Biii.... Chiii....

That's ABC for Ilham. Tak lepas lagi D. But karaokela kot, considering he doesnt read book, he eats book.

My fat a$$ is not going anywhere today, as I've gotta be on standby for that Technical Meeting. what technical meeting? Aku orang HR woii... and again the SoB cam biasa, lari dari tanggungjawab seorang manusia sbb 'being busy' attending training and in the end aku gak kena menjawab issue2 area dia kat meeting tu nanti. So I'm waiting for the dreaded phonecall , " Okay, please come to the meeting room now" Argghh menjawab la aku dengan GM Pl&nt nanti..Iskk..iskk..

Latest news yang aku tak caya gak.. I've been given the permission to leave latest by December. Owhh really? Yeaahhh ritee... tak caya aku. Why izit so hard for these people to decide? Dahla tetiba BB mentioned sumthing about me transferred to Pett pulak. Pulak??? Konfius + sakit jiwa beb.

Uzey is still fasting. Dah more than 1 week oledi. Aku? Baru sehari hehe. Horer ah pemalas nak mampus.

I've taken Ilham out to play with anak2 of the only neighbour Islam ku twice oledi. And he likes it so much. Seems that he is having fun berjalan kesana kemari, bukannya dia interested pun nak main ngan budak2 tu, after all many of them are girls, and besar dari dia..

Update: Back from the meeting and cursing the SoB ..again! Buduhh nak mampos... now I've got to wipe the shit he made. ~maki hamun over and out

Life Is 'Izy' With Direction

So, for Ilham. his life is quite easy now, sbb dah paham sepatah dua direction. Such as

"mana air Ilham" ---> bergegas sepantas kilat ambik botol Barney & terus minum sampai terbatuk2 and right after that.. gedegang! campak botol anywhere yang disukai

"where's your boo" ---> jalan senget2 utk pegi pick up his ball and pretend to kick as hard

"sape hencem?" ---> disudahi dengan jawapan "Paaa paa!!" sometimes he just whispers2 just like Mr Brown

"ABC ilham mana?" --> followed by "Aaaiiiyy.. biii...ishh..ishh..." while flipping through the pages and after 2 seconds will start biting the book itself

and the last command, "NO, Ilham" will be followed by
- campak toys kuar rumah thru the window
- masuk/celup2 kaki dalam jamban
- bukak pintu cabinet and sepahkan barang/ baju
- buat muka busuk
- buang nasik merata2
- and the list goes on and on....


Thursday is a holiday, and next Friday is a holiday as well! Can't wait for our KK trip...

I Love My Job..yeaahhh rite...

Spent the whole morning having meeting in the plant. I mean, in a meeting room in plant area, notla in the boiler or steamer or sumthing. It was so hot and the stench was unbearable. Respek betul those engineers and operators who have been working in that kind of environment. Not for me, saya suka aircond.. hehehe .

Here's a pic courtesy of our own intranet. I'm actually quite proud to be working here, it's just that..umm.. its location tu tak kena. Kalaulaaaa plant ni kat Kertih, I'll stay even for the next 20 years!

I know my size is quite small for an engineer, tapi mama kata okay. So I borrowed mama's jacket and helmet and tried to pretend I'm in the plant.

Sunset in Redang

Love who you are.

Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say
"I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed to be disappointed!"

"Winners make things happen. Losers let things happen."
"To the world you might be one person,
but to one person you just might be the world".

~Redang 2004.

Say No To Promenade

I've been sitting on my fat a$$ without doing anything berfaedah for the last 3 days.

Just confirmed the arrangement of our accommodation. I had earlier booked a room in Promenade Hotel, but I changed my mind AFTER confirmation coz the stoopid receptionist was so damn rude. I've been doing my bookings at many other hotels with more stars, but only in Promenade they asked for the 3 digit number at the back of your credit card "just to secure the room". What a stupid reason. Helloo.. with that 3 digit numbers, senang2 je orang bleh copy and make purchases online. I don't wanna have more nightmares. Bill yang tak setel2 lagi ni pun dah cukup sengsara hehehe. The receptionist was not only rude during requesting my details, she didn't even say Thanks after it's confirmed. So dengan perasaan tak puas ati with the zero star service, I decided to book Le Meridien instead. Yes, it's more expensive, but what the heck, asalkan aku puas ati. Even with government rate, as I used Abah's name, it's still RM100 plus higher. Never mind, as long as it's near to the Filipino market etc, that's what matters most to my mom :). I plan not to shop again. This is actually just a trip to accompany my parents who have never been there. Though I'm still looking for a good seafood place. The one near the jetty what we went last time was too far away. with Ilham in tow, takde sapa nak pegi. Oh, Ilham is 200 gram heavier now. After 2 months, naik 200 gram je? Aiyoo.. He is now weighs at 8.6 kg tapi beratnya rasa cam 10 kg dah.

Can't wait for the trip, and can't wait to receive the transfer letter. Where's my letter, demmit!

~over and out.

Ilham just wanna wish...

Happy Birthday Mak Enn! We love you!!!

Ilham's World Part II- The Real Thing

For me, the real thing will happen only after receiving the transfer letter. As of now, life goes on. But once we return to the place we call home, we can proudly say that WE SURVIVED LIFE IN BTU!!! Yeaahaa..!!

As for Ilham, everything seems so real to him. Elmo macam real, Barney macam real.. tiap2 hari main keta Cars tu pun cam real. His routine now is

0800 hrs: Nangis sikit, wake up, scan the room, tak nampak Mama..okay..golek2 and tido sebelah Papa

1030 hrs: Bukak mata, nangis kalau panas, make sure Papa on aircond, tido balik, kentut2 and golek2

1100 hrs: Sepak2 Papa kalau Papa tido lagi, bangun, play with toys, pusing2 di sekeliling bilik sampai Papa ajak mandi

1130 hrs: After bath, siap2 and turun bawah. While Papa is reheating nasik dalam microwave, minum vitamin perasa oren..yummyy.. and makan nasik

1200 hrs: Panjat sofa, bergayut kat grill tingkap, tunggu Mama balik for lunch

1220 hrs: Mama sampai, minum susu, watch Elmo's World

1300 hrs: Mama pegi keje balik, Ilham masuk buai, Papa sumbat formula hahaha

1430 hrs: Papa baaaru nak tido, Ilham wakes up and demands attention. So play with Papa, baca buku ABC and watch Playhouse Disney.

1700 hrs: Right after Barney, panjat sofa, gayut lagi. It's about time for mama to arrive

1720 hrs: Susu lagi. Main kejap and naik atas. Mandi, play, play, jalan mundar mandir

2300 hrs: Lights out. Sume orang tido. Ilham pun tido...

HellO!!!!!

Untuk tatapan Pok Ngoh, Pok Chik, Pok Teh, Pok Su, TokBah & Nenek;

gigi Ilham dah ada 7!!!! (tapi Ilham malas gosok gigi.. hahaha!!!)

Ilham's World

I've been very busy for the past 2 weeks I don't have to sit down and write about my baby's progress. I made some mental notes, tapi notes tu pun lupa gak. Iskh..

Anyways, Ilham has mastered his walking skills. Infact he walks all over the house, only at times when I observe him, he actually forgets that he know how to walk, he crawls. Then, after few seconds, he realizes that he CAN WALK, he stands up and walk! Sometimes jalan cam Frankestein pun ada, cam nenek kebayan pun ada. There were times he jalan mengiring as in ke tepi left and right. Lawak betul.

I'm taking him out for dinner tonite. Yes, dinner. It's actually a meeting dinner with our new MD, but I dont have the heart to leave him @home, so I'm taking him. Lantak la apa org nak cakap, I've got the permission from BB oledi.

Bought AA tickets for Papa & Ayim. They are coming to visit us mid Sept. Good deal, I would say, sebab tickets tu buy 1 free 1. Tapi yang mahal, tax pulak. But what de heck asalkan ada seat yang free tu, rite?

We've confirmed ambik GE for Ilham's education fund. It looks okay. But we are paying yearly, saves us around RM100 per year, lepas dah tolak2 segala fees and charges tu.

Ilham has started to like biscuits. Before this he refused all sorts of rusks, he eats only Famous Amo$ cookies, now when I offer him Oreo, he can actually finish half piece, so kira okayla tu kan, adala improvement. And he likes his biskut tiger as well. I'm happy with his new development, meaning lepas ni I can start to give him menda yang keras2 sket lah, if not makan bubur pun choking, or in his case, force to choke himself!

I've not informed my subordinate that he will taking over my job, provided he performs well. Cam susah je nak ajar orang tua. I've actually dah banyak bersabar with him but I NEED TO LEAVE, so nak tak nak kena gak ajar that SO of mine so that he can be my successor.

Bosan, bosan, and bosan. The SoB sama jugak la perangai. Bodoh & sombong.. hahaha what a description.

I'm going home now to my baby and my hubby. ~

Nenek + Ilham

Pic taken during Mama's last trip to Btu in May. I'm counting the days for us to be reunited in KK next Sept. Can't wait to meet my parents, and I know how much they are looking forward to this trip, they' just can't wait to finally see Ilham walking!!

Let There Be Love

Pic of my favourite guys taken at Miri Marriott few months back.... when we get back to Kertih, I hope I can take Ilham swimming as often as he likes. Cepat lah January!!!!!

Dreams DO come true!!!!

We're moving back to Kertih!!!!! InsyaAllah kalau takde pape and kalau takde orang yang berhati busuk , we'll be back by January!!!
Yahuuuuuu!!!!!!!

Breaking News For Today!!!!

I've been offered a position in Kertih!!!! But... wait.. there's a but.....

BUT...

I must get the approval from SoB and BB... and I doubt they will let me go!!!!

Ya Allah, please ... please.... let them let me go.....

Wakey Wakey!

So hard to wake up early today, I ended up sleeping until 8.04 am. Can somebody tell me what time my office starts? Haha tepat sekali!! It's at 7.30 am!!!! Patutla ada orang nak DI aku muehehe. After 2 days of waking up at 11.55 am and 10.20 am consecutively, it took me ages to convince myself that today is Monday!!

Cooked mee curry last nite. Uzey was walloping it like there's no tomorrow. The last time I cooked it was when I was still preggie. I know how much Uzey likes it coz arwah Mama always cooked it, and even sent some to me before we got married.

Ilham has recovered from his fever, and the red spots have spread jadi tompok2 pulak. Mula2 Ilham Si Bintik, then Ilham Si Tompok. By Sunday, it was 70% gone. We went to the Paed on Saturday afternoon to check on his coughing and phlegm. And as usual he had to take a session of Nebulizer. He cried like a small baby, oh he IS a small baby, rite? But maybe dah lama sangat tak kena Neb tu so that's why he was furious.

He is still having a bad cough. Sampai terduduk2. Kesiannn... hope he will get better soon!!

Nothing much happened during the weekend. Still counting the days, when are they going to let me go????

Here Comes The Weekend!!

There's so many things I'd like to write about. But I dun think I hv enuff time to yak, I'll just hv quick notes for these

1. Ilham is getting better. Though he still have diarrhea. Woke up at 1.48 am and cried before ending up soiling his nappy. I was quite worried coz his poopoo is green/blackish in colour. And OMG, he has red dots all over his body! When we asked the Paed last nite, he said, that's normal for 3 days babies to have the dots to after they just recover from fever. How true is that? No, I'm not saying the Paed lied, tapi sajalah, benefits of the the doubt.. So I'm still surfing the net to find the real satisfying answer.

2. Blogging is a national issue. Wtf? I mean like, blogging is NOT a crime!! I just think it's just an addiction :-) As for me, I've been reading blogs since January 2004, and still am. Until recently I finally managed to have the courage to start my own. For the last 2 years plus, I've never came across blogs yang plot for murder, kidnapping, bombing and so on. Most are just sharing their experiences and I could say that it enriches my life to read other peoples experience. Let them say whatever they want lah.. As for me, I'm not in favour of blogging bout national issues. I just wanna talk bout my life. So that when the time comes, I can always reflect and look back, how far I've come and how good I've become.

3. New baby in the family! My cousin R*by has just delivered a baby boy at 8.40 am this morning! Now Ilham has a sparring partner haha! Delivered by the same gynae who assisted me.. my father's cousin.

4. Weekend is here! Humm.. what's the menu fo weekend? Last nite I cooked daging msk merah for dinner. I plan to cook black pepper beef strips for tonite. Let's see.. We have a small pumpkin in the kitchen, I might prepare pumpkin custard , but ..err I dun think I will coz Uzey doesnt like it. Then what else? Spaghetti? Boooriing...

5. The war in my office between me & the SoB. Just received a text message from BB. It says " U mean between U and JT? Don't worry we'll sort is asap, just stay cool." Haha serves u right SoB!!! I am now in the winning team! I've made my alliance with sooo many people. So u kiss my a$$ okay?!?!? Can't wait for BB to come back!

~over and out.. I'm off to a great weekend!~

I don't hate my job, I just hate my BOSS.. :p

Hate Your Job? 10 Ways to CopeBy Kate Lorenz, CareerBuilder.com

Having a job you just hate is never an easy thing to deal with, but sometimes you just need to grin and bear it until another good opportunity comes along. Whether you're currently stuck because you just have to pay the bills or are holding out for the next great job, here are some things you can do to help you get through the day.

1. Set weekly goals for yourself. Sometimes it is easier to get through the day when you can keep your eye on the prize. Even if you hate your job now, there is something out there that will make you happy. Make weekly goals to help you find that golden opportunity. One week you might strive to send out five resumes or attend one networking event. Setting these goals will give you something to work towards.

2. Do one thing each day to help you reach your goals. You don't need to cross all your goals off your list every day, but you can chip away at it. When wake up, set a daily objective for yourself and make sure you achieve it. This will give you a sense of accomplishment and keep you feeling good about your progress.

3. Give yourself "me time" before work. Going into a job you hate will be worse if you get to the office feeling rushed, stressed and frazzled. Set aside some moments of solitude each morning. Develop a positive morning ritual. Treat yourself to a latte, get up early enough to read the paper, or just set your alarm to play upbeat music when you wake up. Improving your mornings can do wonders for your afternoons.

4. Create a diversion for yourself in the office. Does being in your office make you yearn for the outdoors? Are the incessant ringing phones driving you batty? Do something to brighten your mood while you're at work. Take in a tropical picture and use it as your screensaver. Buy yourself a "joke of the day" desk calendar. Plug headphones into your computer or bring your iPod to work. Go out for lunch.

5. Use your time to develop your skills. Hating your job doesn't mean you can't learn new skills. Use your time to make yourself a better candidate down the road. If your company offers training courses, take advantage of them. Use downtime to learn something new on your computer. Pick up a management development book and read it at lunch. Turn this job into an opportunity for self improvement.

6. Blow off some steam. Most people have an activity that helps them unwind and get rid of tension. Go for a run after work, go swimming on your lunch hour, or take a nice long walk. Put this time on your schedule so you will have something to look forward to every day.

7. Treat yourself. To make up for your office misery, find little ways of treating yourself. Buy a good book to read. Treat yourself to ice cream. Buy some flowers. Shop for a new interview suit. Plan your next vacation. Find out what makes you feel better inside, no matter what is going on outside.

8. Maintain your performance. It is important to continue to do your work and do it well, regardless of your current situation. Set personal performance goals. Then use the accomplishments in future interviews.

9. Keep your bridges intact. It really is a small world, and you never know when you will run into co-workers from your past. Don't burn any bridges at your company because you are unhappy. Maintain your contacts and keep your relationships on a positive note. You might just need a reference or a good word from one of your colleagues in the future.

10. Realize that this too shall pass. Right now, it might seem like you will be stuck in this job forever. Keep your chin up and remind yourself that you are in charge of your destiny. Search internal postings for new positions. Start your search for a new job externally.

By reading this email, everybody knows the SoB is an a$$hole. Kesiannya...

The SoB nak DI aku. Huahuhaua, who is he kidding? I'm sooo not guilty by not saving his a$$ I'm getting all the punishments? Not worth the trouble langsung. Thanks to him, the world is now a better place with a f*cker like that.

Dear Puan Nora,
Instruction for you to accompany SAINS representative was given by HR Manager himself (as communicated to you on 27 July 2006 ).
You at least MUST inform me ( before the meeting ) should you don't want to accompany them for whatever reasons, for me to find other staff as replacement. We have to unnecessarily s manage the consequences of the little mistake we made.
I am not pointing fingers to you or anybody but rather to take the above as lesson learnt for all of us that we SHOULD always follows our superior legal and official instruction (as whatever happened he / she will be accountable for it ). Insubordination and appropriate disciplinary action could be taken should we don't follow the instruction.
You have been on sick leave and emergency leave last Friday and yesterday of which I knew it from Cik B*bi and En H*sli Bujang respectively as you don't feel like to inform me though I am your Line supervisor.
I think it is not appropriate to accuse me of always pointing fingers at you , please.
Thank you

J*layhi Tani

Count Your Blessings!

Though work sux and people at work are giving me heart attack and rasing my BP and making me feel like $hit, but I am still blessed coz I can go home and have Ilham in my arms. Compared to the unfortunate mothers in the the other side of the world where their childrens are dead, killed by orang2 kafir laknatullah... I am still fortunate & blessed. Alhamdulillah.

Ilham...

Ilham,
mama took an EL yesterday coz I was worried about you. For the 2nd nights in a row, you woke up at 3 am and cried and tossed and turned and you were inconsolable. Mama and Papa were very sad to see you in that kind of condition sayang. I cried everytime you looked like you were in pain. How I wished I could take away your pain, sayang.. You only slept again at 7 am, and we took you to the Paed at 9.30am , you were given an antibiotic jab and you cried again. Your body temperature was fluctuating and all we could do was to try cheer you up, to reduce your body heat and to make you feel better.

I am so happy today that you finally managed to have a good interrupted sleep. And you are back to almost your jovial self by lunchtime today.

Thank God you answered my prayers.....