I love you You love me
we're a happy family
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.
won't you say you love me too
Thursday, June 29, 2006
This song is specially dedicated to Papa... from Umair Ilham..
I love you You love me
we're a happy family
with a great big hug and a kiss from me to you.
won't you say you love me too
Unbelieveable
To my dearest darling,
I'm blessed to have you.. Thank you for everything...
"Unbelievable"
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
[Chorus]
Now I see, what love means
I'm blessed to have you.. Thank you for everything...
"Unbelievable"
Always said I would know where to find love,
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and you changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
[Chorus]
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
[Chorus]
Now I see, what love means
Let's Take A Few Days Break...
..though it's not gonna be very exciting coz Uzey's not coming along!! huhu...
so, what's my plan when in KL?
Let's see... blurgghh..macam takde mood langsung! But see lah how it goes. Without Uzey tagging along, I feel cam arghhhhh tak bestttttttnyaaaaaa....
anyways, this is a message to U.. sayang..
" First of all, welcome to my blog!!! I finally have a visitor! hahaha and feel so honoured to have you here keskeskes... secondly, please enjoy your free time and tolongla dok rileks2 je, tak payah la u nak kemas the whole house and mop and sanitize semua Ilham nye toys (but I bet that's what u will do..!!!) , tengkiu for sending the car for service. Thanks thanks thanks for everything that you have done and will do..
We are gonna miss you darling! Tak best nya shopping without u.. nanti I nak tanya sape kalau tatau nak beli barang? Nak mintak opinion sape? But I will buy your pesanan okay, don't worry. Ape lagi u teringin? Auntie Anne? Cinnabon? Let me know okayyyy.....
Finally, please take care of yourself & please pray that our journey will be smooth & Ilham tak buat hal sepanjang kat sana .... I love you and Ilham loves you more!!! Muahh muahhh.."
CUTI ANDA TELAH DILULUSKAN
hahahha.. Love ya,
Wife
so, what's my plan when in KL?
Let's see... blurgghh..macam takde mood langsung! But see lah how it goes. Without Uzey tagging along, I feel cam arghhhhh tak bestttttttnyaaaaaa....
anyways, this is a message to U.. sayang..
" First of all, welcome to my blog!!! I finally have a visitor! hahaha and feel so honoured to have you here keskeskes... secondly, please enjoy your free time and tolongla dok rileks2 je, tak payah la u nak kemas the whole house and mop and sanitize semua Ilham nye toys (but I bet that's what u will do..!!!) , tengkiu for sending the car for service. Thanks thanks thanks for everything that you have done and will do..
We are gonna miss you darling! Tak best nya shopping without u.. nanti I nak tanya sape kalau tatau nak beli barang? Nak mintak opinion sape? But I will buy your pesanan okay, don't worry. Ape lagi u teringin? Auntie Anne? Cinnabon? Let me know okayyyy.....
Finally, please take care of yourself & please pray that our journey will be smooth & Ilham tak buat hal sepanjang kat sana .... I love you and Ilham loves you more!!! Muahh muahhh.."
CUTI ANDA TELAH DILULUSKAN
hahahha.. Love ya,
Wife
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
All In A Day's Meal...
- ¼ jar of blended chicken porridge
- 1/2- 1 piece of Nestle’s banana rusk
- few mils of susu cokelat
- plain water
- few sips of Ribena
- ice cream/ honey dew susu occasionally
- 3-5 oz of formula
- unlimited supply of b/milk
That’s all. Do you think it’s enough for such an active baby?
I don’t....
- 1/2- 1 piece of Nestle’s banana rusk
- few mils of susu cokelat
- plain water
- few sips of Ribena
- ice cream/ honey dew susu occasionally
- 3-5 oz of formula
- unlimited supply of b/milk
That’s all. Do you think it’s enough for such an active baby?
I don’t....
Monday, June 26, 2006
Another Day..
We've been contemplating and doing some survey on what type insurance to buy for Ilham. Guess it's not too late to start thinking about it now, though it's quite hard to decide what kind/type/rate/whatsover things related to starting an education fund. Or would it be better to have a life insurance that covers everything? Medical/health? Education? Blablabla...
On a happier note (which doesn't involve decision at all, if any), lham has learned to point at my eyes and nose, everytime he's feeding then he'll start poking my nose and eyes and going confused on which is which. He has also learned Salam and cium tangan, but most of the times end up biting our hands instead of kissing it!
We bought him a cheap magna doodle and seems that he likes to scribe things on it and he actually knows how to hold a pencil, yeahh I mean not la holding and start writing but I guess fo a baby his age, he is quite smart, yeah?
On a happier note (which doesn't involve decision at all, if any), lham has learned to point at my eyes and nose, everytime he's feeding then he'll start poking my nose and eyes and going confused on which is which. He has also learned Salam and cium tangan, but most of the times end up biting our hands instead of kissing it!
We bought him a cheap magna doodle and seems that he likes to scribe things on it and he actually knows how to hold a pencil, yeahh I mean not la holding and start writing but I guess fo a baby his age, he is quite smart, yeah?
It's not easy being Izy..
i am stubborn
i just want to leave this place
i said I want to leave this place
i want to learn how to swim properly :-p
i wish I can leave this place
i hate people who don’t respect others
i miss my family
i fear God
i hear that the company is going to increase our salaries :-)
i wonder what will happen to us
i regret coming here
i am glad I have Ilham & Uzey with me here
i sing when I feel like singing
i cry when I feel like crying
i am not always moody
i made nice cheese cake
i write for fun
i confused myself sometimes
i need a massage just like the one I had in Ubud
i should lose weight
i start my day by kissing Ilham
i finish my day by kissing Ilham
i just want to leave this place
i said I want to leave this place
i want to learn how to swim properly :-p
i wish I can leave this place
i hate people who don’t respect others
i miss my family
i fear God
i hear that the company is going to increase our salaries :-)
i wonder what will happen to us
i regret coming here
i am glad I have Ilham & Uzey with me here
i sing when I feel like singing
i cry when I feel like crying
i am not always moody
i made nice cheese cake
i write for fun
i confused myself sometimes
i need a massage just like the one I had in Ubud
i should lose weight
i start my day by kissing Ilham
i finish my day by kissing Ilham
Four...
4 jobs I would stink at:
Teacher
Sales person
Actor
Writer
4 movies I can watch over & over:
The Wedding Singer
Ice Age
50 First Dates
Labu Labi
4 beverages I enjoy from time to time:
Ultimate Ice Blended Mocha - Only the one from Coffee Bean for me
Ice lemon tea
Milo kosong, suam
Honey dew susu concocted by Uzey
4 fantastic destinations I would like to go to before I pass out:
Mecca - this time for Hajj
Maldives
LA
London
4 things I love to do on weekends:
Golek2 with Ilham
Cooking for Uzey
Shopping - when in KL
Spending time with family around me
4 objects I could not live without:
Handphone
Food
Water
Ilham- can he be considered as an object?
4 gadgets I do not have which I would quite like to have:
Nokia Communicator - to replace my old Nokia 6510 and Tungsten T2
Washing machine cum dryer
Breadmaker
Air purifier
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Ilham's First...
Aeroplane ride
when he was newly-conceived. I was in KL for a short trip, we just celebrated my birthday at The Ascott, and I was scheduled to return alone. We even had more trips when I was pregnant. November (Raya break), One in January (Raya Haji break), Feb (CNY break), Mar (Training in Shah Alam), April (went to Kuching with my parents), May (returned home to give birth) and in August, when we returned to Bintulu and he took his real first flight outside of the womb :-p
Meal
when he was 5.5 months. He didn’t enjoy it much though. Spilled the food on his car seat, refused to wear a bib and until today he is still a picky eater. Very very picky, infact.
Hair cut
when he was 7 days. Shaved by my dad and he looked really funny being bald.
shopping trip
When he was 39 days. Took him to Kuantan, managed to buy him a baby carrier which he has never used before returning home promptly since he cried non-stop in Parkson. Arghh..
Tooth
Can’t remember the exact date but he was 4 months old when he cut his first tooth. Had a slight fever and we thought the tooth was much too cute!
Hospital stay
When he was 2 days’ old. Being hospitalized for jaundice and kept under the blue light for almost 24 hrs a day for 6 days.
Toy
A rattle and a musical teether bought when I was 8 months’ pregnant
Car ride
On his 1st day of life, from hospital to my house. Slept all the way.
Swimming lesson
Those sessions in bath tub are not counted. Bought his first float & swimming diapers before our PD trip, where he played in the swimming pool for the first time when he was 10 months old
when he was newly-conceived. I was in KL for a short trip, we just celebrated my birthday at The Ascott, and I was scheduled to return alone. We even had more trips when I was pregnant. November (Raya break), One in January (Raya Haji break), Feb (CNY break), Mar (Training in Shah Alam), April (went to Kuching with my parents), May (returned home to give birth) and in August, when we returned to Bintulu and he took his real first flight outside of the womb :-p
Meal
when he was 5.5 months. He didn’t enjoy it much though. Spilled the food on his car seat, refused to wear a bib and until today he is still a picky eater. Very very picky, infact.
Hair cut
when he was 7 days. Shaved by my dad and he looked really funny being bald.
shopping trip
When he was 39 days. Took him to Kuantan, managed to buy him a baby carrier which he has never used before returning home promptly since he cried non-stop in Parkson. Arghh..
Tooth
Can’t remember the exact date but he was 4 months old when he cut his first tooth. Had a slight fever and we thought the tooth was much too cute!
Hospital stay
When he was 2 days’ old. Being hospitalized for jaundice and kept under the blue light for almost 24 hrs a day for 6 days.
Toy
A rattle and a musical teether bought when I was 8 months’ pregnant
Car ride
On his 1st day of life, from hospital to my house. Slept all the way.
Swimming lesson
Those sessions in bath tub are not counted. Bought his first float & swimming diapers before our PD trip, where he played in the swimming pool for the first time when he was 10 months old
Friday, June 23, 2006
One year has passed..
I was flipping through Ilham’s album last night, and suddenly it dawns on me that he has grown up a lot , though he just passed 2 days after his first birthday. Fortunately we remembered to capture his first moments after his birth, though most of the photos only dated 21/06, less than 24 hrs after he was born.
The one that brought tears to my eyes was the picture where I was holding him in my arms, on my hospital bed, and he was looking at me and I smiled down at him. I felt blessed, contented and complete, and I still am now.
But the truth is, just flipping thru the album makes me wanna cry. I still can feel the excitement, the pain, the blood (tak tengok pun but I’m sure there were ‘pails’ of them) , the anxious faces outside the labour room, everyone and everything that happened on that memorable night.
I remembered saying "Alhamdulillah" loudly when Dr Zana put him on my tummy. And I remembered saying to Uzey "muka macam I! Muka dia macam I! " but.. Well.. He actually turns up to look more like his dad. Wishful thinking betul time2 tengah high cam tu.
No matter what, for every second that Ilham is with us, I will never trade it with anything else, coz the past 1 year with Ilham has been priceless.
Thank you Umair Ilham, for bringing such joy to us, especially to me, Papa & Nenek.. Everything we did and we still do now is for you, now, tomorrow ..and for the rest of our lives...
The one that brought tears to my eyes was the picture where I was holding him in my arms, on my hospital bed, and he was looking at me and I smiled down at him. I felt blessed, contented and complete, and I still am now.
But the truth is, just flipping thru the album makes me wanna cry. I still can feel the excitement, the pain, the blood (tak tengok pun but I’m sure there were ‘pails’ of them) , the anxious faces outside the labour room, everyone and everything that happened on that memorable night.
I remembered saying "Alhamdulillah" loudly when Dr Zana put him on my tummy. And I remembered saying to Uzey "muka macam I! Muka dia macam I! " but.. Well.. He actually turns up to look more like his dad. Wishful thinking betul time2 tengah high cam tu.
No matter what, for every second that Ilham is with us, I will never trade it with anything else, coz the past 1 year with Ilham has been priceless.
Thank you Umair Ilham, for bringing such joy to us, especially to me, Papa & Nenek.. Everything we did and we still do now is for you, now, tomorrow ..and for the rest of our lives...
Thursday, June 22, 2006
The 5s Meme
5 items in my fridge.
There are actually so many things inside there, it’s always full to the brim, esp during weekends.
1) Ilham’s frozen porridge
2) Ilham’s Calciyum
3) Leftovers
4) Air sejuk in botol Ribena kaca - Uzey will be complaining non-stop if it’s not replenished
5) Eggs - good during emergencies
5 items in my closet-
I don’t really use this closet. Most of the times keep my clothes in the bakul in ironing room
1) Baju kawin in a zipped bag
2) Baju melayu Uzey
3) His pants + shirt (there’s only 1 shirt!)
4) Dusty sexy sleepwear which I don’t wear anymore :-p
5) Ilham’s toys
5 items in my purse-
knapsack- since I don’t really carry a handbag & most of the time keeps my purse in the knapsack
1) Ilham’s diapers
2) Ilham’s Magic Cup
3) Ilham’s spare clothes
4) My wallet
5) Ilham’s toys
5 people who are thusly tagged
Whoever’s reading this blog- which I doubt! hahha
There are actually so many things inside there, it’s always full to the brim, esp during weekends.
1) Ilham’s frozen porridge
2) Ilham’s Calciyum
3) Leftovers
4) Air sejuk in botol Ribena kaca - Uzey will be complaining non-stop if it’s not replenished
5) Eggs - good during emergencies
5 items in my closet-
I don’t really use this closet. Most of the times keep my clothes in the bakul in ironing room
1) Baju kawin in a zipped bag
2) Baju melayu Uzey
3) His pants + shirt (there’s only 1 shirt!)
4) Dusty sexy sleepwear which I don’t wear anymore :-p
5) Ilham’s toys
5 items in my purse-
knapsack- since I don’t really carry a handbag & most of the time keeps my purse in the knapsack
1) Ilham’s diapers
2) Ilham’s Magic Cup
3) Ilham’s spare clothes
4) My wallet
5) Ilham’s toys
5 people who are thusly tagged
Whoever’s reading this blog- which I doubt! hahha
The School Meme
How many schools did I go to?
Five.
1. Tadika Balai Polis when I was 6. Until today I do not know the exact name of that kindie. Balai Polis coz it was located within the same gate of the police station.
2. SRK Sri Suria 2 where I spent the whole of my 6 years there.
3. TKC where I found the best of friends
4. Is MCC considered a school? Spent 2 years there where I turned to be an 'owl' . Didn't go to sleep until almost dawn and woke up just in time for classes.
5. Went to PPP until I graduated. Spent every single free time in Subang Parade, Sunway Pyramid & KLCC without worrying about having to study. Was already with Uzey at that time.
Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
Neither here nor there. Most of my programming assignments were done last minute.
Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
I was no one to the TKC teachers. But I know Pn Sabariah & Ms Vicky liked me hehe. Teacher's pet esp in TITAS where I used to skip classes, missed a test, managed to buy an MC and got A for the final exam
What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
Ransacked a fifth former's desk when I was in form 4 . And the minor ones would be
1) Pijak rumput- kena warning masa House meeting
2) Lambat for breakfast- but Sue was 'Ratu'
3) Lambat turun dinner- kena kunci ngan Linda Onn
4) Tak pakai fork & spoon- kena fine 50sen-- bodoh nye
5) Curi2 kuar tgk movie- it was Desperado, if I'm not mistaken.
Three subjects I enjoyed.
Electronics- in PPP
English 101 - in MCC with the late Mr Fauzi
Maths
Three teachers that 'stuck' in my heart.
En Ahmad Bidin- more of a big brother for all of us
Mr Lim Kim Oh- the one who made me hate Physics for the rest of my life
Pn Raenah (can't remember the spelling) in PPP- I hate accounts more becoz of her!
Five.
1. Tadika Balai Polis when I was 6. Until today I do not know the exact name of that kindie. Balai Polis coz it was located within the same gate of the police station.
2. SRK Sri Suria 2 where I spent the whole of my 6 years there.
3. TKC where I found the best of friends
4. Is MCC considered a school? Spent 2 years there where I turned to be an 'owl' . Didn't go to sleep until almost dawn and woke up just in time for classes.
5. Went to PPP until I graduated. Spent every single free time in Subang Parade, Sunway Pyramid & KLCC without worrying about having to study. Was already with Uzey at that time.
Was I the studious nerd, or the last minute hero?
Neither here nor there. Most of my programming assignments were done last minute.
Was I the class ‘taiko’ or the teacher’s pet?
I was no one to the TKC teachers. But I know Pn Sabariah & Ms Vicky liked me hehe. Teacher's pet esp in TITAS where I used to skip classes, missed a test, managed to buy an MC and got A for the final exam
What was the biggest rule I broke in school?
Ransacked a fifth former's desk when I was in form 4 . And the minor ones would be
1) Pijak rumput- kena warning masa House meeting
2) Lambat for breakfast- but Sue was 'Ratu'
3) Lambat turun dinner- kena kunci ngan Linda Onn
4) Tak pakai fork & spoon- kena fine 50sen-- bodoh nye
5) Curi2 kuar tgk movie- it was Desperado, if I'm not mistaken.
Three subjects I enjoyed.
Electronics- in PPP
English 101 - in MCC with the late Mr Fauzi
Maths
Three teachers that 'stuck' in my heart.
En Ahmad Bidin- more of a big brother for all of us
Mr Lim Kim Oh- the one who made me hate Physics for the rest of my life
Pn Raenah (can't remember the spelling) in PPP- I hate accounts more becoz of her!
Tag Lama
4 Jobs I Had In My Life
1. Filing clerk at Haworth Subang- my supervisor was a s#xual harasser- dia harassed another clerk, so we resigned
2. QA clerk Ansell Shah Alam- my sv was a lesbian.. nama dia cik xDx..
3. QA exec at Custommedia in TPM – keje dalam 3 bulan kot
4. IT exec at KUB building- sempat keje sebulan je
5. IT exec in GIRM
6. HR Exec
Four Movies I Could Watch Over and Over
1. shrek 1 & 2
2. 50 first dates
3. ice age
4. wedding singer
Four TV Shows I love To Watch
1. house MD
2. Desperate Housewives
3. LOST!!!
4. sume citer playhouse disney
Four Places I've Lived
1. Tanah Merah
2. Seremban
3. Kuantan
4. Shah Alam
5.Puchong
6. Kertih
7 Bintulu
Four Places I've Been On Vacation To
1. Redang
2. Pangkor
3. Bali
4. KK
Four Places I'd Rather Be In
1. home with Ilham & Uzey
2. Tanah Merah with my family
3. Kertih
4. -
Four of My Favorite Foods
1. italian food sume jenis
2. nachos
3. burger king nye mushroom swiss
4. keropok lekor
Four Websites I Visit Daily
1. Ilham Inspires
2. the star online
3. few blogs
4. petronas nye website (cari keje kosong)
1. Filing clerk at Haworth Subang- my supervisor was a s#xual harasser- dia harassed another clerk, so we resigned
2. QA clerk Ansell Shah Alam- my sv was a lesbian.. nama dia cik xDx..
3. QA exec at Custommedia in TPM – keje dalam 3 bulan kot
4. IT exec at KUB building- sempat keje sebulan je
5. IT exec in GIRM
6. HR Exec
Four Movies I Could Watch Over and Over
1. shrek 1 & 2
2. 50 first dates
3. ice age
4. wedding singer
Four TV Shows I love To Watch
1. house MD
2. Desperate Housewives
3. LOST!!!
4. sume citer playhouse disney
Four Places I've Lived
1. Tanah Merah
2. Seremban
3. Kuantan
4. Shah Alam
5.Puchong
6. Kertih
7 Bintulu
Four Places I've Been On Vacation To
1. Redang
2. Pangkor
3. Bali
4. KK
Four Places I'd Rather Be In
1. home with Ilham & Uzey
2. Tanah Merah with my family
3. Kertih
4. -
Four of My Favorite Foods
1. italian food sume jenis
2. nachos
3. burger king nye mushroom swiss
4. keropok lekor
Four Websites I Visit Daily
1. Ilham Inspires
2. the star online
3. few blogs
4. petronas nye website (cari keje kosong)
Raya Plan
Flight Itineraries
21 Oct 2006
BTU-KUL 4.05 pm
KUL-KBR 10.30 pm
5 Nov 2006
KBR-KUL 9.35 am
KUL-BTU 11.15 am
Planned Activities
21/10: Arrive at KBR Airport around midnite
22/10: Stay @ home- Imi’s birthday
23/10: Balik Kertih
24/10: Balik TM
25/10: First Raya
26/10: 2nd Raya & balik Kertih semula. Mimi’s akad nikah at nite
27/10: Kenduri Mimi
28/10: Kenduri Mimi on the guy’s side
29/10: Balik TM
30/10: TBA
31/10: Uzey’s operation
1/11- 4/11: Uzey’s recuperating @ hospital & home
5/11: Balik BTU..huwaaaaa!!!!!!
21 Oct 2006
BTU-KUL 4.05 pm
KUL-KBR 10.30 pm
5 Nov 2006
KBR-KUL 9.35 am
KUL-BTU 11.15 am
Planned Activities
21/10: Arrive at KBR Airport around midnite
22/10: Stay @ home- Imi’s birthday
23/10: Balik Kertih
24/10: Balik TM
25/10: First Raya
26/10: 2nd Raya & balik Kertih semula. Mimi’s akad nikah at nite
27/10: Kenduri Mimi
28/10: Kenduri Mimi on the guy’s side
29/10: Balik TM
30/10: TBA
31/10: Uzey’s operation
1/11- 4/11: Uzey’s recuperating @ hospital & home
5/11: Balik BTU..huwaaaaa!!!!!!
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Thank You
{This post will serve as reminder to myself. Esp during trying times that can make me forget how blessed I am having you as my husband}
Thank you Uzey for ...
Thank you Uzey for ...
- being there for me for the last 8 years
- taking care of Ilham full time since the day he was born
- being in the labour room with me
- Holding my hands since my contraction was 20-minutes gap
- Ironing my baju keje
- Cooking nasik + sometimes lauk for me to have during lunch (and sometimes dinner)
- Doing the dishes
- Doing the laundry all the time and I’ll never have to sidai baju tengah panas
- Folding and kemas our baju all the time
- Being ‘Monk’!!!
- Packing and unpacking barang everytime kita travel
- Vacuuming the house every weekend
- Paying my hutang credit card
- Buying me nice things, bouquets of flowers etc etc
- Driving me wherever I wanna go (esp in KL)
- Suffering in silence during my countless shopping trips
- Keeping the house spick & span
- Paying & organizing the bills
- Locking Astro Ria and tak kasi I watch AF4
- Keeping up with my annoying brothers yang always lembap (esp Becik)
- Making friends with my brothers
- Accepting my family
- Being my husband
- Taking care of me everytime I fall sick
- Not leaving my side esp when I was hospitalized with throat infection last 3 years
- Going to so many nice places with me
- Your patience
- Your loyalness
- The best honey dew susu ever
- Always be there for us
- Being such an angel
- BEING YOU.
This is actually an endless list but I just want you to know that you are everything I need in a friend, soulmate, companion, husband, lover, human being.
Finally!!!!!
Finally berjaya letak ticker kat atas tu instead of kat footer
tu pun cam weird je but wat de heck. As long as it appears..lantak lah.
so...
Lesson Learnt #1
Jangan escape class web. Masa kat PPP dulu slalu escape class web. Skang nak letak ticker pun tak reti. I can't remember the lecturer's name tapi aku ingat sangat aku pau disket kak Azy pehtu tiru sejibik2 hahahha
tu pun cam weird je but wat de heck. As long as it appears..lantak lah.
so...
Lesson Learnt #1
Jangan escape class web. Masa kat PPP dulu slalu escape class web. Skang nak letak ticker pun tak reti. I can't remember the lecturer's name tapi aku ingat sangat aku pau disket kak Azy pehtu tiru sejibik2 hahahha
Hikmah nya...
aku tak tau..
I'm having a mixed emotion. Nasiblah airmata tak jatuh depan bos.
from the conversation, what can I say is..everything is BULLSHIT
kalau nak kasi aku blah, dah lama dia kasi. But for such a lame reason , still wanna keep me here and let me suffer, let Uzey suffers and let Ilham suffers.
What urgency are u talking about?
"The urgency is even greater now.." tak paham2 lagi?
Need me to list down my problems?
1. Financial
2. Financial
3. Financial
with my spending style and expenses for the household, we can't really live with one income. And lagi ada orang nak mintak fork out some money to contribute ?? Wtf???
God please help us get out of here!!!
I'm having a mixed emotion. Nasiblah airmata tak jatuh depan bos.
from the conversation, what can I say is..everything is BULLSHIT
kalau nak kasi aku blah, dah lama dia kasi. But for such a lame reason , still wanna keep me here and let me suffer, let Uzey suffers and let Ilham suffers.
What urgency are u talking about?
"The urgency is even greater now.." tak paham2 lagi?
Need me to list down my problems?
1. Financial
2. Financial
3. Financial
with my spending style and expenses for the household, we can't really live with one income. And lagi ada orang nak mintak fork out some money to contribute ?? Wtf???
God please help us get out of here!!!
Tuesday, June 20, 2006
Oh me Oh Myyyyy
There are so many things in my mind rite now..
Especially when 1 credit card has reached its maximum credit limit and another one is approaching soon.. sigh... cepatle bonus.. I wanna pay all my debts (and then start a new cycle) hehehe..evil grin..
How .. oh how am I gonna survive this trip since Uzey's not coming. And how Ilham's gonna survive when he opens his eyes one day and can only see Nenek, instead of Papa? Mama lak kena attend training..what will happen if he doesn't stop crying? what will happen if he doesn't wanna drink his milk? doesn't wanna eat? cries non-stop during the almost 3 hrs flight?
so many what ifs and I'm damn scared.
But I guess life must go on and we must be brave and accept things that happen, or will happen. Coz things happened for a reason...
On a much happier note, weekend is almost here. I've completed many tasks this week and feel good about it. The next step wud be to finish all the trainings, request for transfer again and see how it goes from there.
God please take me out of this place!!!!
Especially when 1 credit card has reached its maximum credit limit and another one is approaching soon.. sigh... cepatle bonus.. I wanna pay all my debts (and then start a new cycle) hehehe..evil grin..
How .. oh how am I gonna survive this trip since Uzey's not coming. And how Ilham's gonna survive when he opens his eyes one day and can only see Nenek, instead of Papa? Mama lak kena attend training..what will happen if he doesn't stop crying? what will happen if he doesn't wanna drink his milk? doesn't wanna eat? cries non-stop during the almost 3 hrs flight?
so many what ifs and I'm damn scared.
But I guess life must go on and we must be brave and accept things that happen, or will happen. Coz things happened for a reason...
On a much happier note, weekend is almost here. I've completed many tasks this week and feel good about it. The next step wud be to finish all the trainings, request for transfer again and see how it goes from there.
God please take me out of this place!!!!
Monday, June 19, 2006
Happy Birthday Ilham!
20.06.2006
Dearest my darling baby Ilham, Happy birthday! You're 1 year old today! Mama and Papa pray that Ilham will be a good son, anak yang soleh, taat, dengar cakap mak bapak... rajin + pandai.. all the good things will come your way as you are very very very much loved by us... by everyone in the family infact...esp Nenek, Tok and Aki... and I'm sure if arwah Wan's here, she couldn't love you enuff infact...
So what's our plan again Ilham?
2-July: Travel to KL without Papa ..for the first time
5-July: Balik
17-July: To KL again..this time all 3 of us!
Can't wait!
..on the other note, last nite we played host to Syed & Jess. I cooked ciken soup, mix fried vege and Uzey cooked telur bungkus-> which Syed tak caya... hehehe.. believe me Syed, and everybody else.. my husband is a GREAT cook! (but I'm even greater heh heh)
Can't wait to go home to spend the rest of Ilham's birthday playing with him...
Dearest my darling baby Ilham, Happy birthday! You're 1 year old today! Mama and Papa pray that Ilham will be a good son, anak yang soleh, taat, dengar cakap mak bapak... rajin + pandai.. all the good things will come your way as you are very very very much loved by us... by everyone in the family infact...esp Nenek, Tok and Aki... and I'm sure if arwah Wan's here, she couldn't love you enuff infact...
So what's our plan again Ilham?
2-July: Travel to KL without Papa ..for the first time
5-July: Balik
17-July: To KL again..this time all 3 of us!
Can't wait!
..on the other note, last nite we played host to Syed & Jess. I cooked ciken soup, mix fried vege and Uzey cooked telur bungkus-> which Syed tak caya... hehehe.. believe me Syed, and everybody else.. my husband is a GREAT cook! (but I'm even greater heh heh)
Can't wait to go home to spend the rest of Ilham's birthday playing with him...
Happy Birthday Ilham!
20.06.2006
Dearest my darling baby Ilham, Happy birthday! You're 1 year old today! Mama and Papa pray that Ilham will be a good son, anak yang soleh, taat, dengar cakap mak bapak... rajin + pandai.. all the good things will come your way as you are very very very much loved by us... by everyone in the family infact...esp Nenek, Tok and Aki... and I'm sure if arwah Wan's here, she couldn't love you enuff infact...
So what's our plan again Ilham?
2-July: Travel to KL without Papa ..for the first time
5-July: Balik
17-July: To KL again..this time all 3 of us!
Can't wait!
..on the other note, last nite we played host to Syed & Jess. I cooked ciken soup, mix fried vege and Uzey cooked telur bungkus-> which Syed tak caya... hehehe.. believe me Syed, and everybody else.. my husband is a GREAT cook! (but I'm even greater heh heh)
Can't wait to go home to spend the rest of Ilham's birthday playing with him...
Dearest my darling baby Ilham, Happy birthday! You're 1 year old today! Mama and Papa pray that Ilham will be a good son, anak yang soleh, taat, dengar cakap mak bapak... rajin + pandai.. all the good things will come your way as you are very very very much loved by us... by everyone in the family infact...esp Nenek, Tok and Aki... and I'm sure if arwah Wan's here, she couldn't love you enuff infact...
So what's our plan again Ilham?
2-July: Travel to KL without Papa ..for the first time
5-July: Balik
17-July: To KL again..this time all 3 of us!
Can't wait!
..on the other note, last nite we played host to Syed & Jess. I cooked ciken soup, mix fried vege and Uzey cooked telur bungkus-> which Syed tak caya... hehehe.. believe me Syed, and everybody else.. my husband is a GREAT cook! (but I'm even greater heh heh)
Can't wait to go home to spend the rest of Ilham's birthday playing with him...
Sunday, June 18, 2006
One day before my boy turns 1
How time flies.. Ilham's gonna be 1 tomorrow. Macam tak percaya. One year ago I gave birth to my lovely darling baby..Umair Ilham B Uzzir Haslija. The precious gem that we have been waiting for almost 2 years..
One year ago on this date, I scared myself for the false alarm.. since I was not yet dilated, had to pujuk Dr Zana not to admit me in ward, so went back, had supper at White House with mom & hubby... and finally D-Day came next Subuh...
Ilham.. how lucky we are to have you. Macam tak percaya... serious shittt memang until today when I look at you sleeping, how content you are, I feel so blessed having you...
Spent the weekend cooking & sleeping & golek2ing with my 2 fav guys.. Can't wait for the next weekend!! hahaha
One year ago on this date, I scared myself for the false alarm.. since I was not yet dilated, had to pujuk Dr Zana not to admit me in ward, so went back, had supper at White House with mom & hubby... and finally D-Day came next Subuh...
Ilham.. how lucky we are to have you. Macam tak percaya... serious shittt memang until today when I look at you sleeping, how content you are, I feel so blessed having you...
Spent the weekend cooking & sleeping & golek2ing with my 2 fav guys.. Can't wait for the next weekend!! hahaha
Happy Father's Day..
..to Abah, Papa and my darling Uzey..
these 3 great guys in my life..
No words can express how much I love you guys..
these 3 great guys in my life..
No words can express how much I love you guys..
Thursday, June 15, 2006
It's Friday!!!
this week seems and feels sooooo long! I just can't wait for the weekend!
Ilham, starting last nite, dah pandai respond to our Uzey's question..
Uzey: sape encem?
Ilham: paapaa!! (dgn nada kiut nak mampus buat sore halus)
oh me oh myyy
tiap2 hari uzey drill dia cakap cam tu
and finally he is able to say it last nite!
it brings a smile to my face everytime he says that.. mmg lawak gile!
yesterday i returned home with a cornetto
makan sampai comot gile
he loves it sooo much! tapi plisss lepas ni jgn demand cornetto from mama everyday , okay!
so, what's in store for weekend?
- cooking
- ilham's b'day party (kalau ada $$ and kalau rajin)
- visit mak ne sakit kaki
- post sume surat sample susu... as if le ilham nak minum eks??
can't wait to be at home...
Ilham, starting last nite, dah pandai respond to our Uzey's question..
Uzey: sape encem?
Ilham: paapaa!! (dgn nada kiut nak mampus buat sore halus)
oh me oh myyy
tiap2 hari uzey drill dia cakap cam tu
and finally he is able to say it last nite!
it brings a smile to my face everytime he says that.. mmg lawak gile!
yesterday i returned home with a cornetto
makan sampai comot gile
he loves it sooo much! tapi plisss lepas ni jgn demand cornetto from mama everyday , okay!
so, what's in store for weekend?
- cooking
- ilham's b'day party (kalau ada $$ and kalau rajin)
- visit mak ne sakit kaki
- post sume surat sample susu... as if le ilham nak minum eks??
can't wait to be at home...
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
The day that changed my life...
I am 6 weeks pregnant. Rasa macam x caya je. Life is gonna change.Totally different..I am so happy I dont know what to say. I hope I will have a smooth pregnancy. And hopefully a smooth delivery. Scared of the thoughts but ..this is what we have been praying for. Day and night. And its fulfilled. Alhamdulillah.
18/6/2005
We are counting the days for you to be born...
19/6
Since tengahari ada contraction.. But very mild... By 6pm dah pack barang... Sampai hospital buat ECG bqby okay... contraction pun 1/2jam sekali je..taknak stay kat hospital so balik semula
20/6
starting. 8 am ..rasa contraction gak but still unsure... Kol 9 mama tepon soh bangun siram bunga... Xlarat ah so bfast...nak try tido dah xleh sbb contraction gap 10...15..20 minit sekali. Kol 11 mama balik from skolah..siap2 terus gi spital. Buat ECG & admit terus. Had lunch around 3.At that time contraction dah 5 minutes gap. After that buat ECG test lagi. Then the real pain started.Contraction makin frequent and more intense. I tried not to lie down. Instead l forced myself to sit and stand when the pain became unbearable. Around 5pm I was 6cm dilated. Sakit gile and by 6pm I had to stay in bed. I was not aware of what happened around me by then. Few minutes before 8pm.. I was on a wheel chair. ..... Wheeled down to the labour room. Oh before that I was given some medicine to empty my colon first. Got down to the labour room..changed to hospital gown and very much in pain. The only thing I remembered was holding to Uzey's hands tightly. And he was at my side..didnt leave me at all.. My pillar of strength..
I was in the labour room from 8pm. Had entonox which was supposed to help lessen my pain. But instead of inhaling the gas .. I used the gas mask to scream! Things got mixed up..I was holding to my ever caring husband.. The doctor & nurses were cheering me loudly...and the baby was on the way! The only motivation for me was when Uzey showed me the small bassinet the nurse wheeled in..to put my baby later on. I was sooo determined to put a baby..a real baby in that!!
We are counting the days for you to be born...
19/6
Since tengahari ada contraction.. But very mild... By 6pm dah pack barang... Sampai hospital buat ECG bqby okay... contraction pun 1/2jam sekali je..taknak stay kat hospital so balik semula
20/6
starting. 8 am ..rasa contraction gak but still unsure... Kol 9 mama tepon soh bangun siram bunga... Xlarat ah so bfast...nak try tido dah xleh sbb contraction gap 10...15..20 minit sekali. Kol 11 mama balik from skolah..siap2 terus gi spital. Buat ECG & admit terus. Had lunch around 3.At that time contraction dah 5 minutes gap. After that buat ECG test lagi. Then the real pain started.Contraction makin frequent and more intense. I tried not to lie down. Instead l forced myself to sit and stand when the pain became unbearable. Around 5pm I was 6cm dilated. Sakit gile and by 6pm I had to stay in bed. I was not aware of what happened around me by then. Few minutes before 8pm.. I was on a wheel chair. ..... Wheeled down to the labour room. Oh before that I was given some medicine to empty my colon first. Got down to the labour room..changed to hospital gown and very much in pain. The only thing I remembered was holding to Uzey's hands tightly. And he was at my side..didnt leave me at all.. My pillar of strength..
I was in the labour room from 8pm. Had entonox which was supposed to help lessen my pain. But instead of inhaling the gas .. I used the gas mask to scream! Things got mixed up..I was holding to my ever caring husband.. The doctor & nurses were cheering me loudly...and the baby was on the way! The only motivation for me was when Uzey showed me the small bassinet the nurse wheeled in..to put my baby later on. I was sooo determined to put a baby..a real baby in that!!
On 18/2/2005...
Hello baby. Now I can feel you kicking. I cant describe the amazing feelings everytime I feel you move inside my tummy. You are such a joy to have for both your papa and I. We cant wait to meet you in June! We have bought you a lot of nice and good things. Infact you will be treated even better by your grandparents. Too bad you don't have the chance to meet papa's mother.
Baby, even though you are still unborn , I can feel that you will be loved and will love us in return.
Baby, even though you are still unborn , I can feel that you will be loved and will love us in return.
This post was written on 13/5/2005
Hello Ilham. Now you are a big healthy boy ... I know from your kicks & when your buttock moves .. You are very active. I cant wait to see you ...& to hold you... We are waiting patiently for you.. ...our baby... Umair Hariz Ilham bin Uzzir Haslija.. My tummy is getting bigger.. I am getting heavier.. At nights I am not comfortable ... Pain here & there.. And the trips to the loo... Unbelievable. But I dont mind.. As long as you are fine & healthy & you will be born soon!!
This post was captured in my Palm few months back...
Ilham is able to manage himself standing up now, the longest being 17 seconds. He has also added more 'sounds' to his repertoire. Gaga gugu mumu bubu baba....
Oh, and more importantly, gigi atas dah naik. Infact it was bleeding sikit yesterday, I guess when the gigi wanted to penetrate his soft gum, so ade darah sket. But, after a sip or two of milk, the bleeding stopped and Ilham pun bergumbira and back to his own jovial self..
The lawak part is that, only 1 gigi yang tumbuh, so I'm sure he will look funny with only 3 teeth, macam odd sangat! It's on the right. I hope the left one will be out soon so baru le kiut skit combination rabbit dia tu.
Oh, and more importantly, gigi atas dah naik. Infact it was bleeding sikit yesterday, I guess when the gigi wanted to penetrate his soft gum, so ade darah sket. But, after a sip or two of milk, the bleeding stopped and Ilham pun bergumbira and back to his own jovial self..
The lawak part is that, only 1 gigi yang tumbuh, so I'm sure he will look funny with only 3 teeth, macam odd sangat! It's on the right. I hope the left one will be out soon so baru le kiut skit combination rabbit dia tu.
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
Mater
Ilham's current favourite toy is Mater, given by Pok Ngoh for his birthday. Everytime he has Mater in his hand, the sound will be "ummmmm...umm.." I guess that's supposed to be "vroom..vroomm.."
It's surprising since we have never taught him to make that kind of sound when holding a car. Guess all boys are hard-wired to be fond of cars & planes...
He is such a fat 'climber' nowadays. as Uzey put it "naik kusi macam lipas kudung" and being playfully he is, misti nak tengok our reaction everytime he manages to panjat the sofa without our help.
I'm counting the days for his first birthday!
It's surprising since we have never taught him to make that kind of sound when holding a car. Guess all boys are hard-wired to be fond of cars & planes...
He is such a fat 'climber' nowadays. as Uzey put it "naik kusi macam lipas kudung" and being playfully he is, misti nak tengok our reaction everytime he manages to panjat the sofa without our help.
I'm counting the days for his first birthday!
Monday, June 12, 2006
Prince Charming
that's my Ilham. Last nite slept at 12 sumthing lepas bergolek2 and suddenly *pretttt* dalam pampers. That's my boy! hahaha regular betul bowel movement Ilham skang eh
on the other note, Uzey has received his interview result.. KIV.. wtf? huwaa hopefully ada orang reject the offer and Uzey will get a job. After 2 years of waiting.. time has taken its toll on us...
My Ilham, on a much happier nota, dah bleh berjalan 4,5 steps and very2 kelakar looking at his lutut yang terketar2 everytime he's trying to balance himself!!
This time, last year, I was heavily pregnant & waiting patiently to give birth anytime. How time flies... Ilham is almost 1 year old.. in one week's time!!!
Syukur Alhamdulillah, for blessing my life with Ilham & Uzey.
on the other note, Uzey has received his interview result.. KIV.. wtf? huwaa hopefully ada orang reject the offer and Uzey will get a job. After 2 years of waiting.. time has taken its toll on us...
My Ilham, on a much happier nota, dah bleh berjalan 4,5 steps and very2 kelakar looking at his lutut yang terketar2 everytime he's trying to balance himself!!
This time, last year, I was heavily pregnant & waiting patiently to give birth anytime. How time flies... Ilham is almost 1 year old.. in one week's time!!!
Syukur Alhamdulillah, for blessing my life with Ilham & Uzey.
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
where have all my posts gone?
when i finally managed to post an entry, for whatever reasons, hilang pulak
arghh
i'm surfing the net to find an easy ice cream cake recipe for ilham. I plan to serve ice cream cake instead of normal cake coz my baby lurrvess eskrem so much! rosak la gigi Ilham.. mama tak tau! oh and yes, I am the one who feed him eskrem and uzey tukang beli. rosakk...rosakk....
arghh
i'm surfing the net to find an easy ice cream cake recipe for ilham. I plan to serve ice cream cake instead of normal cake coz my baby lurrvess eskrem so much! rosak la gigi Ilham.. mama tak tau! oh and yes, I am the one who feed him eskrem and uzey tukang beli. rosakk...rosakk....
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