"So Is Everyone Else"

This one line remark made me cry for almost 20 minutes in the isolated PC lab. To summarize the whole thing, I'm so unlucky to have a heartless, rude, inconsiderate, selfish, annoying bastard to be my boss.
Full stop.

I Miss Ilham..

Uzey drove me to work today, since Ilham woke up very early. As usual, my baby had so much fun sitting in his carseat and watched the world go by, he even hummed few songs and blabbering to himself.

But.. when we reached my office, I gave him a kiss, stepped out of the car and waved to him, his expression changed drastically. No more that cheerful baby singing to himself, he looked so sad, I felt like crying myself. His eyes were fixed on me until Uzey reversed the car and left.


Ilham, I'm sorry I have to leave you. Believe me, I do this for you, for us.. I would trade anything in the world just to be with you.. but I can't. So for the few hours I'm gone, Papa will tak great care of you.. and I'll be home soon!!

Mama loves you so much..

Ilham's Idol

Here's a pix of Ilham with his friends. I don't hv the mood to write anything today, sakit mulut, this big ulcer in my mouth is killing me! Lepas gigi, ulser pulak.. arghh! Oh, we've got our raya tickets. Can't wait to go home!

Happy Ramadhan

I've left my blog idle for few days, due to the stupid rotten tooth that got extracted on Saturday and has made my life miserable since then. Thank God it's okay now and my life is back to normal.

Ilham has a new hobby. He likes playground so much I thought of having one in our own backyard..perghh..macam banyak duit je. But seriously, if were rich, I would buy all those Little Tike$ punye stuff and let him play sampai tido. We went to KFC and he had fun playing on the slides, and when Uzey took him to the palyground while waiting for me at the dentist, Uzey SMSed me and said "Ilham lupa diri".. seriously I can imagine how he was overjoyed being at the playground.

On the other hand, it's 3rd day of Puasa month. This is our 3rd ramadhan here in BTU, and as usual, it sucks. I mean not la the puasa sucks, but we miss all the glorious food we can have back at home!!!

Our fate is going to be determined tomorrow. I know it's all written in qada' and qadar, but I'm praying that we'll get the green light and we'll be outta here by January..aminn...

~over & out solat Zohor

At 15 months..

This is Ilham's favourite pastime activity.. cleaning his toys with that little broom. Am I raising a cleanliness freak? Or this is okay? Well, I think this is fine, just hope that he won't turn out to be like Monk :o One thing for sure is that li'l broom can distract him anytime! Li'l broom saves the day!

Being a cheerful toddler he is, he is not afraid of strangers, but Ilham is afraid of vacuum cleaner, lawn mower & lori simen. There was a butterfly in the house last nite, he was fascinated by it. Wanted to follow the b'fly, but was afraid to venture alone, so he asked me to carry him around to chase that thing. If he is afraid of butterfly, cemana nak bawak gi zoo?

His A..B..C.. is improving now, sounds clearer. Everytime I sing baa..baa.. black sheep.. he will try to imitate.. but only the baa.. baa.. part and followed by shhh.... so his song will be "baa..baa... beh..shhh.."

His appetite is also improving. He can finish a small tub of yoghurt now, compared to before where he only eats a spoonful or two.. and he can also finish a jar of blended rice now in the afternoon, provided I don't come home during lunch break. The only thing that we still need him to do is to drink formula while he is awake! While he sleeps he can drink maximum 6 oz of formula, but he will kick the bottle if he is awake. I really want him to be able to drink formula anytime during the day, so that he won't be 'attacking' me at nite :-)

Well, here's to many many months and years to come for my darling Ilham!

~over & out attending meeting...

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Picture of Ilham & his Aki taken at the golf resort where we stayed for a nite last weekend.

And there goes another weekend.. how time flies. Kejap je and it's almost October. Can we skip November & December? So that we go straight to January and by then we all are back at home.

Went to Miri again, this time with papa & ayim. We departed late Saturday afternoon and went straight to the resort. Went out to had dinner and I was such a good girl for not buying anything eventhough Au$$ino ada stock clearance, sebabnya, I left my wallet at home! Menyesal nya aku tertinggal menda tu, next time, I won't leave home without my plastic money. But on the other hand, it did me good for not spending on the unnecessary..

Oh and I guess I shud write to MD of Coff33 Bean & Tea leaf mesia sebabnya, ultimate mocha at their Miri branch doesn't taste like ultimate mocha at all! Korang tipu ingredients, eh? Ceh.. and I paid 12 bucks just for a taste of plain ice blended.. tak altimet langsunG!

Left Miri around 3 pm and was home by 5 pm. Last nite I prepared kurma ayam but everyone was still full, so I made sushi instead and keep the kurma for today's lunch. I feel bad when papa is home and I hv to come to work. And I've a meeting at 7.30 pm tonite!!! WTF???? Why laaa kena buat meeting when I have guests... tssk..tskk...

Called the travel agent just now to re-route our flight, instead of arriving in KBR, we will arrive at TGG. So that we can be in Kert for few days before raya to help with Mimi's wedding preps. After that, balik raya TM and eve of 1st raya must return to Kert. Pengsan beb. I'll never ever plan for a wedding during raya time! Bleh mati cam ni..

Ilham is enjoying every minutes of his time, since ada company at home. And he shows an instant liking to his aki. After all, he'll be spending most of his time with Aki later, when we move to Kert, I'll drop him at papa's place before going to work.

Bosan & bosan & bosan. Hafta finish few things by today

~over & out

slow updates

As predicted by Uzey, impossible for us to leave by November. So there goes my angan2 to go back for good during raya break. Hopefully betulla bleh blah by January, if not..sigh.. tak tau nak maki sape.. :(

I've been outta office for the last few days, discovering my true self la kononnya by attending the leadership program. What leader? Who? Leader? Me? yeaahh rite.. but it was fun to got to know myself, though i'm sure I still have a long way to go to be a real one.

Few months back I dicovered that I'm a dominant leader, in my kuku besi style. And I knew now that I'm a balanced choleric-melancholic-phlegmatic person, which explains why I'm a bossy, to-do-list freak, friendly(?) and indecisive person. And at the same time, I'm an introvert-judger-feeler-sensor person. That's quite complicated for someone plain and simple like me, but what de heck , dah itu result dia. I guess now I've gotta be cautious on the way I treat my subord, kesian derang dapat aku jadik bos. Plus the fact that I can be loud, direct, sarcastic and MANIC when I'm at my worst, I'm making their life hell. Wtf, let me outta here and I make them happy hehehe

Ilham's not so well these few days. Guess he's tired, tetiba dapat flu. Luckily Uzey gave him the medication early so it's not getting worse. Looking fwd for Papa's and ayim's visit, they are arriving tomorrow with my keropok lekor, woohoo.. we're planning to drive to Miri again this weekend, tapi cam bosan je.. nothing interesting to do there, unless we wanna go and visit tempat2 bersejarah, which is definitely not my cup of tea! Bonus is coming in soon, so that's one thing that makes me one happy satisfied thankful lady!!

~over & pengsan

KK Trip

Our journey started at 0615 hrs on Friday morning. Ilham slept all the way until reached Miri at 0830 hrs and went to the airport earlier since we've never flew from Miri airport before. Ilham, as usual, was having fun walking around the airport and penat giler nak kejar dia. He actually went to this mat saleh couple who were eating ice cream and senyum2 kat couple tu, hoping that they will offer him kot.. and he actually said 'Bye!' and waved his hand when I went to get him out of their way. The flight was smooth, and short! Ilham only managed to catch a 30 mins nap and opened his eyes the moment we landed at KK airport. My parents and bro arrived almost 3 hrs earlier than us, so they checked in to the hotel first. We were so excited, and it was a surprise to see that the hotel was located right infront of the market area, which was my mom's only target. I knew she will be really happy about it. When I was there 3 years ago, I don't remember seeing any building at the Meridien's location. And the room, my goodness! It was double the size of Meridien KL's deluxe! I was imagining that the room is as small, but it turned out that 10 adults pun boleh muat in that room! and plus the fact that our room faces the main road, the waterfront, and we can actually see the swimming pool from upstairs. The RM500+ for 2 nites that we spent was worth it, coz the look on my parents face were priceless, esp mama who actually made SIX trips to the market to buy lots and lots of souvenirs! Food was ample, and fresh some more. Uzey & Imi went island hopping & snorkelling the next day, I only managed to go to the market once after they came back. Got myself a nice pink pearl pendant and black pearl bracelet and they were dirt cheap.The only thing that spoilt the vacation was the AA terminal 2, which was terrible! Bangang betul when the check in counter is next to a construction area, dusty, hot, crowded place. Dahle ramai orang in the departure hall. But again, for RM4.99 tickets, I should not complain much, should I?

Reached Miri at 12 noon, had lunch at my father's friend place and reached home at 4 pm. Perjalanan yang memuaskan, tapi lain kali tak nak pegi lagi ah. I had enuff of KK. So, next destination is Hanoi, insyaAllah..

~over & out

Me & My Favourite Dentist

Pic taken at Klinik Gigi Hospital Teluk Intan on 6.2.2004. notice mulut aku tutup rapat sbb takut Dr Ip suruh bukak, nak check gigi..


Dearest Mak Ip,

we are gonna miss u! Hopefully ko rajin2 ah check email kat sana nanti w'pun ko bz ngan lectures + keje.. Kalau ada rezeki nanti blehla kita sume gi visit kau kat sana.. hehe.. U take great care of yourself.. and be good! Come back soon!! Kem salam kat Dr House ek..



Loves from all of us,
Izy, Fazie, Enna, Sue, Yantie, Nazhan, Aiman, Ilham

Blank

Spent the entire lunch hour browsing Ikea's 2007 online catalogue . How I wish I have tonnes of $$ so that I can buy everything I like. Tiap2 kali tak balik rumah during lunch, I feel like time stops moving. 1 hour seems too long.

We are fasting today, so I'm planning to cook prawn olio, got a simple recipe for it, and I hope it will turn out to be better that what we had at PiZZ^ hut last week.

I've so many things in my mind rite now, especially since I knew that I'm leaving soon. 1st Nov seems too near, dah le masa tu only few days after raya, and Mimi's wedding some more. So I guess we hafta revise oru plan etc etc. and be prepared to face a chaos, esp during moving time!

lapar..lapar...

~ over & out

Syukur Alhamdulillah!!!

I'm so happy rite now I feel like crying!!! If things go well, I'm reporting back to Kertih on 1st November 2006!!!!! Yaaaahhooooooooooooooooo!!!

Surprises! Surprises!

Ilham surprised me last 2 nites. He was playing in the kitchen, when I called his name, he came out and brought a piece of wipecloth and suddenly he started wiping his play gym!!!! Only then Uzey told me that he saw Uzey wiping the food he spilled on the floor earlier. Lepas tu, terus imitate. That was not the first time. Few days back, I saw him wiping the floor, Oshin-style. Sampai tertonggeng-tonggeng. And the other day when I said "Bye!" he actually said bye while waving his hands. Tapi after that, suruh repeat dah tak mau. So I guess, after Mama, Papa, boo, ABC.. bye is his next word.

We have been giving orders to him lately. "Ilham, nak remote.." there he comes with the remote control.. "Ilham, nak handphone"... cepat2 cari and bring to us.. he now can bring us pampers, book, air, seluar.. I guess it won't be long before he can start to bring us drinks, magazine, etc etc.. hehe buli anak..

Every morning b4 I leave for work, I'll open the door just to catch a glimpse on dua anak beranak tu. And most of the time, Ilham sleeps close to Uzey, as in almost hugging him. There were times, he slept right under Uzey's ketiak.. few times on Uzey's chest.. and one time on Uzey's arm. I'm sure he'll miss those moments once Ilham grows up/Uzey has to wake up earlier to get ready to work..

On other note, my EDC paper is being prepared. The status is almost okay, hope things will go smoothly and I can start planning my future in Kert as soon as possible!

~over & out minum Milo panas

The Doughnut Story

Ilham woke up EARLY on Sunday, and when I say early.. it's wayyy toooo early by my standard. 6.45 am beb!!! Hari ini dalam sejarah betulla... but since he woke up crying but didnt wanna open his eyes, I opened all windows, doors and told him, dah pagi tau.. I guess dia cam mengingau and still ingat malam. It's the first time in.. er.. I guess.. 2 years kot.. I woke up THAT early during a weekend.
I left him to play with Uzey and went to the kitchen to prepare breakfast. And since I've planned to make doughnuts, I prepared the doh as well. It's actually my 3rd time preparing it My first attempt when I was few months pregnant, I threw away everything! Sebabnya doh tak naik hahaha. Sebab apa doh tak naik? Sebab masa tengah sukat gandum tu tetiba gandum tak cukup and terpaksa suruh Uzey pegi kedai and beli gandum.. So the 'intermitten' tu lah agaknya yang menspoilkan doh tu.. But before I threw it away, I actually went outside and put the bowl under the hot sun, dengan harapan doh tu akan naik gak.. but.. hehe jadi kuih pau ade lah.. When I was home dekat2 nak beranak, I saw Mama making it, so few months after that, I tried again, during last CNY break. And I finally made it!! Keskeskes ..But this time.. my third attempt.. it turned out to be quite 'doughy'.. (ada ke word ni Puan Sub Editor/ Cik English teacher?)
Okay, enuff bout doughnut. Just received a notification from AA this morning that they are retiming our flight to 12.15 pm instead of the original 8 am. Sukati mak bapak dia je nak retime2 flight cam tu? Iskk... But I guess I shud not komplen too much memandangkan kitorang beli tiket RM4.99 je hehe.. But hey! Tax mahal jugak !!
Whatever it is, I hope this week nobody will spoil my cuti mood. Though I'm damn sure that SoB will!!!

~over and out ..

7 Days..

This Craig David song was on Cat$ FM this morning. I actually tune in to this particular FM every morning while driving to work, coz of the good selection of songs by the morning DJs. But after 9 am, don't ever tune in to it! Boleh muntah dengar bahasa orang *ban and what not.

7 days.. to our 3rd wedding anniversary. Dah 3 years eh? How time does fly.. 3 years of meaningful journey, from Kertih to BTU and back to Kertih (soon!), pre-Ilham & post-Ilham... cheers to a grreat 3 years and more to come!

Spent the free cuti waking up late. Wanted to fast but changed my mind at 11 am coz lapar gila and I forced Uzey to buka pose as well so we can eat lunch together gether. Went out & bought Ilham a new pair of shoes. Masa kat kedai tu, everytime suruh dia test the shoes misti jalan pusing satu kedai and buat muka konfiden lak tu as if cam kasut tu dah memang dia punya. Took him to the beach in the evening, he had fun walking all over the place but when he suddenly noticed that ada budak tengah main air laut yang kaler longkang tu, he pratically run to the shore! Iskk.. dont la main air laut kat sini, tak best langsung! Had guests at nite, cooked macaroni + ciken soup though my initial plan was to cook Uzey's faveret kurma.

Am fasting today, hopefully can survive :) but before that, I need to curse that SoB first. Celaka punya orang tua, ko langsung tak tau ape benda ko kena buat eh? Tetiba nak main pass2 kat orang suka ati mak bapak kau je. Ko memang celaka go to hell, I cant wait to leave this place! Aku tak sanggup beb keje ngan orang cam kau lagi.. ^&#^$^&@@*!!!!!!


Cepatlaaa weekend...

Aiiiiyyy..Biii.... Chiii....

That's ABC for Ilham. Tak lepas lagi D. But karaokela kot, considering he doesnt read book, he eats book.

My fat a$$ is not going anywhere today, as I've gotta be on standby for that Technical Meeting. what technical meeting? Aku orang HR woii... and again the SoB cam biasa, lari dari tanggungjawab seorang manusia sbb 'being busy' attending training and in the end aku gak kena menjawab issue2 area dia kat meeting tu nanti. So I'm waiting for the dreaded phonecall , " Okay, please come to the meeting room now" Argghh menjawab la aku dengan GM Pl&nt nanti..Iskk..iskk..

Latest news yang aku tak caya gak.. I've been given the permission to leave latest by December. Owhh really? Yeaahhh ritee... tak caya aku. Why izit so hard for these people to decide? Dahla tetiba BB mentioned sumthing about me transferred to Pett pulak. Pulak??? Konfius + sakit jiwa beb.

Uzey is still fasting. Dah more than 1 week oledi. Aku? Baru sehari hehe. Horer ah pemalas nak mampus.

I've taken Ilham out to play with anak2 of the only neighbour Islam ku twice oledi. And he likes it so much. Seems that he is having fun berjalan kesana kemari, bukannya dia interested pun nak main ngan budak2 tu, after all many of them are girls, and besar dari dia..

Update: Back from the meeting and cursing the SoB ..again! Buduhh nak mampos... now I've got to wipe the shit he made. ~maki hamun over and out

Life Is 'Izy' With Direction

So, for Ilham. his life is quite easy now, sbb dah paham sepatah dua direction. Such as

"mana air Ilham" ---> bergegas sepantas kilat ambik botol Barney & terus minum sampai terbatuk2 and right after that.. gedegang! campak botol anywhere yang disukai

"where's your boo" ---> jalan senget2 utk pegi pick up his ball and pretend to kick as hard

"sape hencem?" ---> disudahi dengan jawapan "Paaa paa!!" sometimes he just whispers2 just like Mr Brown

"ABC ilham mana?" --> followed by "Aaaiiiyy.. biii...ishh..ishh..." while flipping through the pages and after 2 seconds will start biting the book itself

and the last command, "NO, Ilham" will be followed by
- campak toys kuar rumah thru the window
- masuk/celup2 kaki dalam jamban
- bukak pintu cabinet and sepahkan barang/ baju
- buat muka busuk
- buang nasik merata2
- and the list goes on and on....


Thursday is a holiday, and next Friday is a holiday as well! Can't wait for our KK trip...

I Love My Job..yeaahhh rite...

Spent the whole morning having meeting in the plant. I mean, in a meeting room in plant area, notla in the boiler or steamer or sumthing. It was so hot and the stench was unbearable. Respek betul those engineers and operators who have been working in that kind of environment. Not for me, saya suka aircond.. hehehe .

Here's a pic courtesy of our own intranet. I'm actually quite proud to be working here, it's just that..umm.. its location tu tak kena. Kalaulaaaa plant ni kat Kertih, I'll stay even for the next 20 years!

I know my size is quite small for an engineer, tapi mama kata okay. So I borrowed mama's jacket and helmet and tried to pretend I'm in the plant.

Sunset in Redang

Love who you are.

Look in the mirror in the morning and smile and say
"I am too blessed to be stressed and too anointed to be disappointed!"

"Winners make things happen. Losers let things happen."
"To the world you might be one person,
but to one person you just might be the world".

~Redang 2004.

Say No To Promenade

I've been sitting on my fat a$$ without doing anything berfaedah for the last 3 days.

Just confirmed the arrangement of our accommodation. I had earlier booked a room in Promenade Hotel, but I changed my mind AFTER confirmation coz the stoopid receptionist was so damn rude. I've been doing my bookings at many other hotels with more stars, but only in Promenade they asked for the 3 digit number at the back of your credit card "just to secure the room". What a stupid reason. Helloo.. with that 3 digit numbers, senang2 je orang bleh copy and make purchases online. I don't wanna have more nightmares. Bill yang tak setel2 lagi ni pun dah cukup sengsara hehehe. The receptionist was not only rude during requesting my details, she didn't even say Thanks after it's confirmed. So dengan perasaan tak puas ati with the zero star service, I decided to book Le Meridien instead. Yes, it's more expensive, but what the heck, asalkan aku puas ati. Even with government rate, as I used Abah's name, it's still RM100 plus higher. Never mind, as long as it's near to the Filipino market etc, that's what matters most to my mom :). I plan not to shop again. This is actually just a trip to accompany my parents who have never been there. Though I'm still looking for a good seafood place. The one near the jetty what we went last time was too far away. with Ilham in tow, takde sapa nak pegi. Oh, Ilham is 200 gram heavier now. After 2 months, naik 200 gram je? Aiyoo.. He is now weighs at 8.6 kg tapi beratnya rasa cam 10 kg dah.

Can't wait for the trip, and can't wait to receive the transfer letter. Where's my letter, demmit!

~over and out.

Ilham just wanna wish...

Happy Birthday Mak Enn! We love you!!!