Goodbye Bintooloo

This will be my last post from BTU, the land of belachan. Look how happy Ilham is that we finally leave this place :-) We will surely miss this place but we will never return to live here! Experiences gained and friendships made for the last 2++ years have certainly made my life richer and looking back, it was reaallly a blessing in disguise for us. True enuff, setiap kejadian tu ada hikmahnya, it's just we didn't realize about it until it's too late.

2 years of being here has made our relationship stronger. Uzey has had the most precious opportunity to take care of his own son 24/7 since day 1. I have improved a lot on my culinary skills as Mom is not around to cook my favs food. I changed my job and found that I like this one better than the last. I met many, many people with the heart of gold, and I survived even more SOBs than I could ever think of.

I don't regret coming here. And definitely won't regret returning home.

This is one of the life many phases that will always be treasured.


I dun think I can blog as easily in the new place. My cube is just next to my manager's :p . So there goes my lepak time during office hours ..

UpDATES

Barang semua dah masuk kontena. Kereta dah hantar ke port. Few items yang nak dijual tengah tunggu new owner claim. Checked in Park*city Everly yesterday. Will check out tomorrow and flight is at 1pm. Hotel in kch has been booked. Tickets & passport ready. Had my last words with boss and felt like crying setitik muehehe. Transfer claim submitted. Said my goodbyes. Tinggal nak send Thank You note je before 4 pm. Oh and the Thank You cards will be distributed petang ni jugak.

The time has finally come!! I keep repeating this to myself as I think that it's hard to believe how lucky we are.

Syukur Alhamdulillah, God really works in His mysterious ways.

Presenting..

The Three Little Maggots

Maggot sulung (centre): Aiman Haziq
Maggot tengah (on your right): Nazhan Fahim
Maggot bongsu (on your left): Umair Ilham

Yantie & Shafik: please take note that we have enuff maggots here.. a baby girl is really appreciated.
Thank you.

Selamat Pengantin Baru

to the lovely bride & groom yang pada ketika ini dalam perjalanan ke Cameron Highlands for their honeymoon (part I)

err.. part II kat redang ni jadi tak???

Sacrifices

I dont know how to start and I dont even know how to end.

Uzey has finally got a job. tapi kat P*utrajaya.
we're finally returning home. But then we'll be separated.
Ilham won't see his dad everyday, now his dad is there when he opens his eyes in the morning and he is there when he goes to bed everynite.
sape nak main sorok2 with Ilham? Aki kot..
I won't be moving in with my bro, I'll be staying with papa instead. so, no need to decide nak stay kat R*antau Laut ke R*antau Bukit.
Our intention nak balik Kert sbb nak jaga papa, now papa is the one who's gonna look after us.
luckily i've not been shopping for new furnitures, kalau tak, mana nak campak?
decisions... decisions..
should I move to the bigger room kat umah papa nanti? should we buy a new car so that uzey senang nak ulang alik? when are we gonna renovate the desa*Minium condo? when can uzey start occupying that apartment?

How am I gonna survive? Can I manage Ilham on my own?

God works in a mysterious way, I know.

Leaving on a jet plane..soon!

Currently {sipping my E*rl Grey tea, browsing EEKiya online catalogue and blogging at the same time}

What a nice working life I have. Counting down for another 17 days. Then.. Go home. Unpack our stuff. Uzey admits himself to Pakar Perdana S*pecialist Hosp, Ayah Chik 'repairs' his nose innerside, celebrate Raya Haji @ home, return to Kert and start new life at the new place. Looking forward to it! And as new year is approaching, might as well start a whole long list of new year's resolution..duhh...

oh, my bro's house was broken into yesterday, and he lost his laptop buruk, his coins collection amounting to RM200 plus and mama's old radio. and oh, yes, a tub of his hair cream. Wtf? Luckily segala gitar elektrik + amp + kasut Nik3 baru tak kena pau. If not, I think he will commit suicide for losing his precious guitar kurus tu. There goes our plan to move into his house. Konfem tak selamat.

The dept is organizing a farewell lunch for me today at the Club. I'm happy that they're 'shoo-ing' me away earlier than expected. I should prepare a speech, shouldn't I? Tak payah, don't think people would listen as they are gonna be busy stuffing their mouths with the good, glorious seafood.

ilham is changing his tido cycle, now he wakes up around 6,7 am so I had to send him downstairs to play with Uzey (while I continue sleeping)

i miss Ilham. bosan dok opis. rasa nak balik je.

Left Or Right? Blue or Black? Stay Or Leave?

Ilham has yet to master the Art of making decision, as he was really confused last nite when we offered him 2 different ice cream flavours with different colours. After all, he is my son, and I'm the worst decision maker in the whole wide world! I'm hoping he won't take after me. Seriously, living as an indecisive person is hard, coz u've gotta depend on logics (and Uzey) the whole time.

There were many, many times in life that I had to make decisions, and Alhamdulillah I think I made the correct ones (for most of 'em). Even the incorrect ones turned okay at the end of the day. It's just a matter of making the maybe-correct decision at that point in time makes it hard for me.

During the time when I was happily working in KL, (I thought I was happy) and had to make a decision whether to accept the job offer in Kert*h or not, it took me days to make up my mind. I even listed down the positive and negative side of it on a whiteboard and forced Uzey to decide for me. Turned out that life in Kert*h was great, so a brownie point for a decision well made.

And at that time when we were about to be outsourced.. It took me days, many, many people's opinions and many, many rakaat of semayang hajat before we decided not to take the offer.. and again, many2 prayers and doa and nazar and hopes to decide whether we should move to Btu or not. Gosh.. it was soo damn hard to decide! For someone like me, it took me hours just to choose between and a black or dark blue shoes, so when it comes to life changing event like this, I just didn't have energy to think!

And now, after 2.2 years in Btu, as we are moving back to where we belong, I've gotta decide, to stay with papa or to rent our own house? to invite my bro, or just leave him alone? to take the bigger house or just settle for the small one? RM600 or RM650? and so many many many more unaswered questions that keep boggling my mind.

Well, I'm giving myself few more days then I shall put a stop to all these Qs, answer it and write it down somewhere and stop asking myself the same questions again!

And.. oh.. shud I buy 2-in-1 washer dryer or buy 'em separately?????

Ilham's World Part III

• jom!
• nak!
• dah!
• shake his head when refusing to eat
• bukak
• cucuppp (tutup)
• u naaaiittt (good nite)
• aye ye youuu (i love u)
• bunyi kambing : bekkkk
• car : boom boom
• wipes his nose himself
• wipes his toys
• take the vacuum and start cleaning the house
• a..b..c...
• birdddd
• point to his nose and eyes when asked
• bye papa!
• jon ju jet (don't do that)
• tiikkkkk (cantik)- everything is cantik now even the kitchen sink

Now Everyone Can Die With M*S

Dear En I*dris J4la,

I think it's about time for you to fire your IT guys who are responsible (they shud, but they aren't) to maintain/update/do whatever for the M4s online booking website. This morning, for the 100th time I tried to book Mama's ticket and for the 101th time the system hang bodoh just like that. And I'm tired of typing my credit card number y'know. The day before I called , I was told "oh our system is down", yesterday I called again "oh, u cant use mastercard, there's a problem with our server" and this morning, "OH, NOW VISA IS HAVING PROBLEM" wtf? wtf? tell me wtf is happening to you guys? don't blame the system, I know I used to but this time, i wouldn't. I've never encountered this kind of stoopid wasting time problem with the other airline.. but this time around, as we are traveling together, and our tickets have been purchased so I cant let my mother travels alone on AA while we are on the other one, can I? So please la En I*drays, I know you are struggling to maintain the standard but please la dont let us suffer membuang masa blogging about your stupid system like this. Haven't you made enuff money to recover your loss? Then use that money to revamp your system, please. If not I will act like a crazy lady again when calling the 1300 number.

signing off,

crazy lady from btu

Ilham's Playground Outing

Ilham posing on a slide & see saw last weekend. Took him to the playground and he had sooo much fun he refused to go home.

A Piece Of Heaven

When I look at him, I see life in its purest form.

I'm blessed.

HAPPY 17th MONTHS B'DAY SAYANG.
We love you.

My Little Ilham

I've not been updating on Ilham's little achievements lately. That's maybe due to being so 'engrossed' in this transfer-maki-bos-bosan keje thingy.. I guess I shud be blogging more bout Ilham after this, after all, this blog is dedicated to him :-)

My darling Ilham will turn 1 year and 5 months in 5 days' time. At this stage, I'm secretly hoping that he can say at least few words so that we can communicate more efficiently, but well, I guess he is still observing the world around him and trying to process every single data in his brain. That's why he always have this solemn look when observing people. Oh no, it's more like staring at people, esp those whom he met for the first time..

He understands most of our directions now, Even those that we were not teaching him at all. He says "vroom" when he sees picture fo a car, or his toy car, even when we say car. He knows how a lamb should sound, he knows his "bird" and keeps repeating (and touching) it during nappy change. He can say Bukak and Tutup in his own version.. bucak.. cucup.. clearly.. He knows in and out and sometimes repeat after me. He can say Bye Papa properly and he can say don't do that in an almost perfect way.

He nods when he wants something and and he shakes in head in disapproval and rejection for almost every kind of food that I offer him. He loves to say Dah! and he holds our hand and say Jom! when he thinks we are going somewhere.

He's a gem and the apple of our eyes. He makes me forget that the outside world is cruel. He makes me forget that sometimes we are in the most difficult situation, and he makes me forget everything around me once I see his smile and when he starts giggling and talking to me in his baby language.

That's my little Ilham. We could not have survived the entire stupid Btu ordeal without him, seriously.

The Letter..

.. has arrived.

Kertih, here I come! tee..hee..

Post- Eid Report

Celebrated raya to the max and ate like there's no tomorrow. Spent 16 days at home (minus 2 traveling days) and berulang alik Kerteh-TM-KB and back to Kerteh. Time well spent with both families and looking forward to go back for good by end of this year.. until.. few minutes ago when BB cam to me with an assignment and a statement "your transfer will depend on the completion of this assignment"...wtf? Ada hati nak hold aku lagi ..sampai February lak tu? bullshitttt... memang a$$hole besar mamat ni.. My transfer has been APPROVED and my name has been published on the intranet and yet, I am still here, covering his big a$$hole until when..forever? well, if that's a challenge, I am more than willing to accept it. And I'll make sure that on 2nd January 2007 , my big fat a$$ will be sitting on a chair in HR Dept, E*EM* dengan jayanya.

Loads of pictures were snapped during raya and Mimi's wedding but none is with me now. And I can't upload the pix from my phone to Palm coz I was absentmindedly deleted the Photos apps. Bangangnya, now I can only view the pics on Palm desktop only. Arghh... Am too lazy to figure out how to reinstall 'em back. am too lazy to do anything.. let me go, fu6ker!

~over and out cursing BB again

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri...

..and Maaf zahir Batin.. to all my readers? Readers? yeaa rite..do I have readers? Oh I do.. err.. boleh dikira dengan jari :-)
To all my friends, drive safely and have a good time with your families. We are leaving with 4 pm flight today, transit at KLIA for 1.5 hours and depart for KT around 7.30 pm. Hope it's gonna be a smooth journey.
Won't be blogging for approximately 16 days, definitely! As I know I will be busy chasing Ilham around and stuffing my face up with all those raya delicacies.

~ over and out thanking God it's goinghomeday!

It's GOODNEWSDAY!

Feel so happy! A friend's wife delivered a baby girl yesterday and another friend has just received the news that she's pregnant with her 2nd baby! And to think that Ilham and his first son were delivered just 3 days apart. I'm so happy for her coz it took her 4 years, many2 bidan and more than 3 gynaes in her quest to become a mother and suddenly yang 2nd one ni, unexpectedly, without help of any Cl0mid whatsoever.. it's just pure luck and rezeki from God.

and am even happier coz I've got the permission from BB to go home 5 hours earlier on Friday without having to take any leave! yeaahhaaa.. can't wait! have started packing our things since last nite and I actually ironed all of Ilham's clothes.. --> too excited :O nak balik hehe..

~over & out sharing good news wif frens

1/11 or 1/1??

Met my future boss in KL and he was asking me again and again.. "What's holding you?" It was hard for me to answer his question as BB over here is not releasing me..yet. Susahla camni beb. Given a choice, I'd like to start on 1/1.. sebabnya aku taknak la burn kan tiket flight nak pegi Yantie nye wedding!! Hahaha tu je reason dia. If I hv to be there on 1/11, cam tak logikla coz dah semput sangat..today is oledi 9/10.. and on 1/11 we are still on raya hols.. kalau 1/12 lak..burn tiket..rugi.. so I guess the best date would be 1/1. Start new year with new company, new boss, new place (?) and new job.. Just remembered that my nazar is sekor kambing if I get to transfer by this year and another one if I get a place in Kerth.. well, seems that we will have a kambing party on Raya haji this year? Yeahh.. too bad I hate lamb, nevermind, can always include something else in the menu later..

KL trip was good. Ilham was enjoying himself throughout the 4 day trip. During the 2 hr flight, he slept a little, played a little, had juice, cookies, read his book, tear up the pages of the inflight magazine and imitating the sound of someone behind us puking :-) He was also okay during the whole day in mama's care. slept at 1 am , playing with Teh & becik and woke up at 12 noon! Budak kecik apa tido time cam tu? I didn't do any major damage to my credit cards/ bank account, so that's one hell of an achievement for someone uncontrollable like me..

The only major setback during the trip was the hotel. Sucks gile service, esp the laundry bag part! Tell me, which hotel CHARGE their guests for requesting extra laundry bag???llo... u dont expect me to use only ONE laundry bag kalau stay sampai 4,5 days, okay? I've been to the 'posh-er' ones and tak penah pulak kena cam tu. Kalau kedekut sangat, provide the plastic ones..which they dont have oso... iskk.. fail ..fail.. if not becoz of the location, I dun think I will stay there ever, again. Or maybe next time kalau nak stay situ, kena bawak plastic bag sendiri banyak2..


~over & out buat keje yang melambak ni

KL Short Trip

Pocoyo wannabe vs the real pocoyo :)

Ilham & I will be leaving for KL tomorrow, leaving Uzey alone, again. My plan for tomolo, ask mama & teh to wait for us at KL $entral, check in at Im*piana, bukak puasa & wait for abah there. I've read so many bad reviews about that hotel, but that's the only one nearest to KLsisi. I wanna go back during long lunch break on Friday, and I dont hv the heart to stay at MO, malas nak menjawab kalau claim banyak sangat, their rate is so damn expensive! After much contemplating between Nik*ko, Impi*ana, MO, Konkod & H*ilton, I've confirmed my booking at Imp, coz of its location. Siaple kalau service sux, aku komplen banyak2 nanti. Afterall, that's the easiest place for me to go to work Friday morning.. We'll traveling back with one colleague of mine on sunday, so that I have someone else to chase Ilham for me hehe. Hopefully si pokoyo ni tak buat perangai during the 2 hrs flight..

~over & out balik masak utk berbuka

kwik update on the journey
Ilham was such a good boy during the 2 hr journey. reached hotel at 8.15pm. bad decision by staying there, but it's oledi too late..
will update again soon..
miss u Uzey!

Lauk Berbuka For Today

Went to the Tamu last weekend and snapped this pix. Shud have captured in video instead, so baru la bleh nampak ulat2 sagu ni dok menggeliat dalam bakul masing2. It's for sale, 3 ekor singgit. I think if you buy the whole clan, you can get it cheaper.

On our way back, some mangoes captured my attention. Tapi satu timbun RM3 sekilo, next to it, setimbun lagi, RM4 sekilo. So our conversation goes like dis

Aku: Eh ni kenapa harga lain
Makcik : Ni mango, ni mangga (pointing to the timbun)

Wtf???

Alhamdulillah

My wish has finally come true. My paper is cleared, everything is okay, and approval from the VP has been received. What more can I ask for? Cukup dah. I'm so happy rite now, takleh nak describe dah. Hope things will go smoothly after this.. I'm sure banyak lagi obstacles ni, with my current boss yang tak berapa nak ikhlas ni, iskk... As Sue said, this is the best bday gift ever! Memang pun.. rasa nak melompat ni beb...

A'ways, ni lah rupa brownie yang tak macam brownie. Apparently my brownie is soft and fluffy, so konfem la bukan brownie. Boleh ke aku buat brownie tapi jadi kek? Muahaha.. I'm such a loser when it comes to baking! Nasib baik it tastes good, even Ilham loves it! Note to self: Misti beli vanilla ice cream tonite, baru best. Ilham was 'helping' me in the kitchen while I was baking, but he was afraid of hand-mixer! So I had to carry him while mixing the egg+sugar, that's why brownie ni tak menjadi.. muahaha.. excuse, excuses..

I'm so happy today.. lalalalallaa

~over and out bersyukur kepada Tuhan

"So Is Everyone Else"

This one line remark made me cry for almost 20 minutes in the isolated PC lab. To summarize the whole thing, I'm so unlucky to have a heartless, rude, inconsiderate, selfish, annoying bastard to be my boss.
Full stop.