Why...

I suddenly feel relieved. Just like a heavy burden has been lift off my back. Don't know why, when I was driving home after lunch, I kept thinking of the weird dream I had lat nite, where I saw 2 corpses, err not even corpse, only the kafan and I saw like my aunt's P/jaya house and things like that in the dream. And the 'bad voice' in me keeps reminding that my parents are traveling home today from Put'jaya and I guess.. it makes me really worried and so many things came into my mind. Nauzubillah I do not want anything bad happening but nauzubillah, though I've scared and worried, and when I called both their handphones, couldn't get thru, and I don't have their driver's no.. I was becoming more worried!!! And when I called my dad's office to get the driver's hp no, nobody picked up the phone. Hellooo, I called the main line okay, and it's a government office AND it's Tuesday, their lunch hour is @ 1- 2pm but I've been calling the no from 2 pm sharp, until at 2.38pm baru ada orang angkat!!!! Abah, u shud do s'thing about it. It's tarnishing ur image as a corp. body...
I finally managed to get the driver's no, and when I called, ya Allah, my parents are at Ampang Jaya Police Sttn.. apparently they have been involved in a pile-up accident and my dad's car was the first in line. And their phones ran out of battery (as usual) Habis.. this is the 2nd time this month I guess. Baruuu je the other day a lady langgar the bumper. Aiyoo.. why lah... And suddenly I feel relieved. Coz Alhamdulillah my parents are okay and are not injured.. And I can think straight again..

And on the other note, I was told that my comment in the recent P*S survey was very obvious and it gives way.. Just by reading it people know it was me who wrote that. Kantoi beb. But okaylah, at least I was being honest. Am I gonna be punished coz of that? I hope the only kind of punishment I'll get is a transfer letter saying that I'm not needed here anymore. Aaaamminnnnnn....

Get well soon sayang...

Ilham is not well. He woke up at 3 am, and only slept again at 7 am this morning. His body was warm to the touch and he threw up while feeding. I am worried sick! It seems that the medication is not doing much to him. We had actually pay a visit to the Paed last nite and had new set of antobiotics, but I guess its not showing immediate effect.. Gosh, I am soooo sooo worried. With the condition in the office, and Ilham's not well, I can't concentrate on anything. I feel very miserable. I pray Ilham is gonna get better soon. And I mean SOON. I can't bear to see him miserable like that. I know he's not comfy and he feels lethargic and tired. I wish I could help him and take away his pain!

Get well soon sayang. Mama is praying fo yoU!!!

Another one..

Sixty-Two Question Meme

1. How old do you wish you were?
I'm happy with my age. But if I could turn back time and fast forward it again just like the movie Click, I wanna go back to the days when I was 6- I love being in kindy, when I was 18, before my grandma passed away so I can tell her how much I love her and when I was 20, where I fell in love with Uzey.

2. Where were you when 9/11 happened?
My newly-rented apt in Puchong. I only knew about it the next morning when I saw the headlines of newspaper during my usual LRT ride to work. I was working at KyuB building at that time.

3. What do you do when vending machines steal your money?
Kicked it hard. Haha. But it's been ages since I last used a vending machine.

4. Do you consider yourself kind?
Yes, but only to certain people.

5. If you had to get a tattoo, where and what would it be?
On my shoulder blade, maybe a heart sign.

6. If you could be fluent in any other language what would it be?
French. It sounds sexy :p

7. Do you know your neighbors?
Nope.

8. What do you consider a vacation?
Away from office/ people I know from office. Then I'll be free

9. Do you follow your horoscope?
Used to.

10. Would you move for the person you loved?
Yes. Definitely!

11. Are you touchy feely?
Erm, not really. I hate it when people that I don't really know and I don't care about giving me hugs and pecks on the cheeks.

12. Do you believe that opposites attract?
Yes. That's why I'm married to Uzey. We are worlds apart, that makes us more stronger.

13. Dream job?
Anywhere but here, doing s'thing like what I do now- minus the a$$hole$

14. Favorite channels?
Depends on my mood

15. Favorite place to go on a weekend?
Anywhere with my family

16. Showers or Bath?
Showers at home and long bath when I stay at hotel

17. Do you paint your nails?
Nope. Used to when I was studying, but just temporarily.

18. Do you trust people easily?
Nope.

19. What are your phobias?
Rats, cats, flies, snakes. All kinds of animals you can see on Nati0nal Ge0graphic.

20. Do you want kids?
Yes, I hope to have more.

21. Do you keep a handwritten journal?
Used to keep it in my Palm. But blogging is easier.

22. Where would you rather be right now?
Home with my family

23. What makes you feel warm and safe?
Hugs & kissessss from Uzey & Ilham

24. Heavy or light sleep?
Used to have heavy sleep, but am a light sleeper now since Ilham sleeps next to me. I'm afraid I'd steamrolled him one day :p

25. Are you paranoid?
No

26. Are you impatient?
Yes Yes Yes

27. Who can you relate to?
No one. I am my own person

28. How do you feel about interracial couples?
They are human beings. As long as they are loved and feel loved, I've nothing against it.

29. Have you been burned by love?
Nope.

30. What’s your life motto?
Things happened for a reason

31. What's your main ringtone on your mobile?
Harder To Breathe

32. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Feeding Ilham while thinking about our future

33. Who was your last text message from?
Hubby

34. Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
Mine!

35. What color baju kurung are you wearing?
Blue

36. Most recent movie you watched?
Click

37. Name five things you have on you at all times?
Depending on what time it is. But I'm not naming 'em.

38. What color are your bed sheets?
Blue, beige, yellow. Stripey.

39. How much cash do you have on you right now?
RM 2.80. I don't bring cash to the office. I don't need 'em anyway.

40. What is your favorite part of chicken?
Breast

41. What's your favorite town/city
Paris. But I've never been there, aci ke cakap favorite?

42. I can’t wait till...
we move outta this place!

43. Who got you to join MySpace?
I don't

44. What did you have for dinner last night?
Rice, tomyam, fish

45. How tall are you barefoot?
154 cm (only!)

46. Have you ever smoked crack?
Nope.

47. Do you own a gun?
Do I need one? Oh I wish I have so that I can just shoot the SoB's head! haha

48. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
Depends on my mood, coffee during sleepy days. Tea, sometimes.

49. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
Ask my hubby.

50. Do you have A.D.D.?
What's A.D.D?

51. What time did you wake up today?
7.27 am

52. Current worry?
Office/ work/ transfer

53. Current hate?
Office/ work

54. Favorite place to be?
Anywhere with my family.

55. Where would you like to travel?
Anywhere interesting and where I can go shopping

56. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
Kertih/ KL.

57. Last thing you ate?
Famous Amos cookies

58. What songs do you sing in the shower?
Depends. Most of the times from Cranberrie$

59. Last person that made you laugh?
Hubby

60. Worst injury you've ever had?
My 'keropok lekor' incident. I still have the scar.

61. Does someone have a crush on you?
Not that I know of

62. What is your favorite candy?
Any dark chocolate. The darker, the better.

What DRIVES you?

I saw this question on Palm's website. Which got me into thinking, what drives me. Well, my answer is, my family. Coz my job sucks, my friends are far from here, only my family; Ilham, Uzey, and my parents & brothers, though they are far from here too, but they are all within reach. THEY DRIVE ME.

Ilham, apart from the usual 'Mamamama' during feeding time, he says 'Bu' when he plays with his colourful rubber balls. At first I didn't notice it, coz we always says "Ilham, get me the balls", or "Ilham, nak ball" etc but few times he said "Bu" when he looks around for his balls. So that was his second word.. And last week, when I said "Mama read book to you" then he says "Bup, bup" Well I guess that could be the third word in his repertoire of sounds. I notice that when he I return home, he always laugh and says "Go..Go" (as in GOD) so i guess that's his way of saying "Hi mama! I'm so happy you're back!"

What else did we do during the weekend?

DVD marathon. Finally managed to watch the DVDs we brought in KL. Cars, Ice Age 2, Click. Another one to go, Benchwarmers, we'll save for the next weekend (Note to self: Shud buy more DVDs next time, and don't but at BB, bad quality and more expensive. The ones bought by Izat in S'yang is much better in terms of price + quality)

Cooking. Been craving for it, so I cooked assam laksa and shared some wif friends. This is my 4th time cooking it and it gets better everytime. :p The first time ever was when we were still in Kert and arwah Mama's still alive. 2nd time was when I was few months preggie and had to have it so cooked like one big pot and shared wif frens as well, 3rd time was few months back, had some guests over our place. Woke up early Sunday morning to cook kari ikan to have with our instant roti canai, but only managed to sit down and have b'fast at 12 noon. Brunch la tu, coz uzey & Ilham woke up reallly late. Infact I had to force both of 'em to wake up!

Shopping for groceries & provisions. After 3rd trip barula rasa cam dah takde menda nak beli dah. Got the usual yogurt, milk, cookies, veggies, ikan + ayam, choccies and so many other things sampai tak muat fridge + food cabinet. Save us the hassle of going out during weekdays.

Sanitizing the whole house- Uzey did it, not me :p. But I helped putting the laundry in the washing machine. If I have enuff $$ I'd buy the washer+dryer so tak payah lagi my darling hubby bersusah payah sidai baju in the hot sun!

Visiting friends- just to fill time and to let Ilham meets other people, to let him learn social skills and make friends with other babies

Playing with Ilham. I thought him to kick balls. The rubber balls, I mean. But I WOULD teach me to kick balls when he's big enuff to do that haha but I'll only let him do that to the SB only. But, wait, shouldn't his dad teach him that? Mama has gone far, hasn't she?

Met the insurance agent. We have been scouting around for the best package for Ilham's edu. fund but so far only 2 have responded. Hope more will respond soon so that we can make up our mind fast and start investing for Ilham's future.

~over & out( for now)~

What the.....

Friday: Sick leave. When I woke up, I couldn't bring myself up. The world was spinning, my vision was blurry, my head was heavy and I felt dizzy.


Monday morning: I can't think properly at the moment.. There are so many things on my mind... I HATE HIM! The SoB drives me crazy! While I was on sick leave, he kept promising to people that they can get whatever they need from me, without informing or even asking me first, whether that can or can't be done. He is not in the office, attending some stoopid training that all of know will not benefit him or us at all. And leaving me with the big responsibilities. I pray that his plane will crash. Serious. I'll go that far. Coz thanks to him, my life is miserable. But, no, I'm not gonna allow it, coz he is too worthless to mess with my life.

So SB, u can go to hell. I'll deal with ya once u come back. And BB, sorry lah to bombard you this morning with questions, I didn't know IT'S 2 AM OVER THERE AND YOU ARE ON A FERRY FROM DOVER CROSSING ENGLISH CHANNEL TO PARIS. well, hope u'll have a great time. Come back soon, I'll have a session with ya as well. hahaha..

Of Work & Baby Rooms

Gotta finish so many pending items from the matters arising from yesterday's meeting. And again, the stoopid old man is pissing me off. Dahle join the meeting half way, masuk2 je terus ask stupid questions and cracked stupid jokes. I hate him to the core. Gosh, how can this kind of ppl exist? And I bet he didn't understand anything that we discussed about. Kalau paham, takkan la buat muka puzzled cam *toot* tu? Gosh, please please transfer this monkey out! Either he goes, or I LEAVE! Yeahh!! As if the Big Boss cares about it, kan? And Mr BB has been outta office since 20th and will only be back on 7th. Tell me how can I survive like this, one? I wish I have a boss like my friends, I've never heard they talk bad about theirs. Mine has never encouraged, supported, respected and even cared on what I do. He didn't even allow me to attend the assessment for my own progression! That explains how 'lucky' I am to have him as a boss.. Too bad he has a stubborn subordinate like me. You are trying to stop me? Go ahead. Gua pijak kepala lu beb.. HAHAHAHA

I should blog more about Ilham, hence the blogname. But I guess I'm too messed up @ work that I've got to pour everything outta my system. Then baru bleh citer pasal Ilham. His 7th tooth is almost out. Almost tu cam nak tak nak je penetrate his gum. No wonder la lately grumpy semacam. But, errmm kalau gigi ada 7, 4 atas, 3 bawah tu cam tak balance, kan? Hope the 8th one will come out soon. But my cousin Adam pun ada 7 only. Standard bilangan gigi bayi setahun lebih kot..

Read in a friend's blog on her comments of baby rooms in the shopping malls in KL/Selangor area. I've got my 2 cents' worth as well, having been to the major ones with Ilham, malls + airports, KLIA, Kuching airport, KB and LCCT.

KLCC: Isetan has a baby room, but there's only 1 small room and few changing tables. Ada mineral water tapi slalu out of stock. They should replenish the stocks, coz mothers do get thirsty while nursing okay. I've used Isetan's for many times, when I have meetings in PeTT and Ilham comes to visit during lunch hour. Infact, I can safely say that it's where I spend my lunchtime providing lunch to Ilham. Wanna invite me for lunch? Tunggu Ilham burp dulu :p. If I'm not mistaken, there's also one @ Motherc*re but I've never used it. But I've seen people going in and out of the room at the back of the store.
**Rating: 2 stars

OU: Jus*o has good ones. Complete with spring cot, normal cot, changing pads and individual room is provided with comfy sofa so that baby & mommy bleh melepak2 dulu before continue shopping.
**Rating: 4.5 stars

MidVlley: Again, I only use Jusc*'s. Comfy and easily accessible.
**Rating: 4.5 stars jugak

Ikea: There are 2 rooms, one close to Smaland and another next to the cafe, but quite small to my liking. There's one changing pad and table in each room, but more often that not, selfish parents don't use the rolled-paper provided to layer the pad, so banyakla poopoo yang tertinggal on the pad. Yucks! One good thing is they have foot stool so sangatla selesa sekali.
**Rating: 2.7 stars

KLIA: This one gets 4 stars from me. Very, very clean and comfy. The one and only annoying thing is the announcement, coz the ceiling is low and the speaker is too loud. Tak bagus untuk baby's hearing tau. Other than that, okay, they have baby cot, but the hot water pipe is always not working. I only use the one in the Departure hall, it's not occupied most of the time and Ilham has been a regular there, even managed to take naps when our transit is too long.
**Rating: 4.65 stars

LCCT: Wtf? They call it changing table tapi please lah it's not even a table, it's just like what you get in the aircraft's toilet. Infact yang dalam aircraft tu pun elok + secure lagi. And in their case, table yang tak safe langsung. What will happen when my baby bergolek while I'm changing his nappy? I'll never use it. Baik tukar kat atas kerusi je.
Rating: -0.7 stars

Kuching Airprt: They have a good one after the total makeover. Small room, but no chairs provided. You expect me nursing standing up, eh? I like the changing pad/ cushion though, big enuff for Ilham to golek2.
Rating: 2.8 stars

Times Sq/BBP/Lot10: Never bother to locate the rooms coz everytime we are there, we stay at ParkRoy*l nearby, so kalau Ilham poo pun we can always rush back to the hotel.

Wait a sec, I should be typing my ISO docs instead of yakking here, rite? Okay okay back to reality. ~over & out~

ZJFX98

Just got the ref # for our raya tickets. Hope things will go well, janganla MAS nak buat hal tetiba nak totally stop BTU sector come October.

Am still not feeling well, and the gloomy weather is not helping much. Macamla keje on the field kan, pity those who work in the plant. But well, tu lah, sapa suruh keje dalam plant. hahahaaha-> evil laugh. But for me, dapat gaji RM20K sebulan pun I will never work in the plant, dusty, panas, stuffy, with ammonia smell, granulation powder etc, bleh pengsan beb. I've only been inside the process area twice and rasa menyesal tak sudah.

Oh, in here, I'm actually PAID even when I'm blogging. Ni konfem boss tak tau, so wat de heck. At least, I'm not like some ppl yang vanish from office almost everyday and bagi reason, makcik sakit, pakcik pengsan, anak demam, kucing batuk, goldfish kena HFMD, what else? For whatever reasons, they are not in during the day, datang masa meeting je but during the meetings, they are the ones who talk most. Bullshooot betullaaa.

Just came back from lunch. Uzey cooked today, and I guess I am one of those lucky moms who get to go home during lunch, jumpa anak, have lunch with hubby, and return to office, all within 1 hour. Pantas dan cekap. Cheewaahh..

I have 2 meetings in 15 mins time. 2 meetings concurrently. Cayalah. Bagaimana harus aku membahagi kepada dua kepala hotak & badan to attend both. Hellloooo, can't u guys invite my SUPERIOR. Dia hidup lagi, okayy. unless kalau dia dh mampos tu lain lah. Oops I'm so cruel but what to do :p

On a much happier note, Ilham dah jalan laju, though he looks funny, sometimes terbongkok2 cam nenek kebayan, and sometimes cam frankestein un ada. But he's quite competent already, and Uzey managed to capture his so-called first steps on viewcam last nite. He was actually showing off his skills once dia nampak his dad holding the camera. Okay, lepas ni bleh burn to CD and send it to Nenek, yay!

Gotta go & sit my fat a$$ in the meeting room now.

Of Cravings & Tonsilitis..

My tonsil has activated itself since last nite. Argh. I hate it when my throat sakit. But I think I know what's the culprit. Misti becoz of the Limau Nipis juice with asam boi that I made last nite. I substituted the asam boi bijik with serbuk, that's the only one available, coz i had the cravings for similar juice I had at the L*ksa Shack the other day, though theirs was way too sweet to my liking. Don't think it's getting better, even after gurgling salt water and had a mug of tamarind juice after lunch today.

Talking about craving brings me to my pregnancy-induced cravings, which I would say, very 'critical' due to unavailability of certain food at the place where we live. That's why, if possible, Insyallah, I plan to conceive again only after I'm transferred! Tak sanggup beb pregnant kat sini!

Among the things that I craved for

Coke & colek pauh. I remember gulping down almost a 1-litre bottle of Coke and eating colek pauh yang pedas gile few days before I found out I was pregnant. Nasiblah nothing bad happened! I felt so guilty and Thankful at the same time that the 2 Cs, Coke & Colek didn't effect my baby.

Nanchos. But only the ones from Chilis. Nasib baik Uzey managed to take me out the day before we returned to TM for Raya. We went to their branch @ OU. tu pun dah almost closing time. I only had that, and felt very satisfied and happy!

Nasik lauk gulai ayam kampung at that particular kedai bawah pokok in TM. I shed a tear when we went there on my last day of vacation and pakcik tu angkat tangan signaling sumthing like "Lauk abis"! Gosh memang nak nangis. But I finally managed to wallop it during my next trip home.

Telur penyu. Yes, the extinct penyu. I asked Papa to bring it to B*ntulu during his visit, and he actually bought like 20 bijik! And I had all for myself, coz Uzey doesn't really like it.

To be continued...

Of Good Friends and Great Times

One of my good friends is leavin' for further study in UK coming Sept. Had a small farewell gathering for her, and we got her a nice crystal + pearl bracelet. *p, jangan lupe eh, nak kirim barang nanti! hehehe. The get-together we had last Saturday was fun. Though it was only for short while coz yours truly was late! Ni gara2 nak pakai keta orang punye pasal. But luckily nobody left before we reached Fazi*'s. It's been a long time since we last had that kind of session. The last one was on New Year's day, at Y*ntie's where we cooked spaghetti and baked our own pizza! (tapi still tak aci coz pizza base beli yang frozen) :-p How time flies, but our friendship is still strong. Reminiscing the time when we were in T*C... dari umur 13 baru akil baligh and now we have our own babies, things may have changed, but our bond, does not.
I still remember how stoopid we were to do things back in college, theye never fail to bring a smile to my face everytime ingat balik all those moments. Now, all 5 of us, have our own paths, but things in common get us together, which is friendship based on trust and honesty. We have gone through different ways, but we will always be friends, and me, being one of them , is very proud to have 'em for the last 15 years....One is a dentist, who will be a specialist in 3 years' time. One is a masters student, just quit from her high-pay job to be with husband up north, one is getting married in December and is now a teacher, (and we've never thought she could be one!), one is a full time mummy, a very educated mummy at that, having had a degree and almost completed her masters (sewaktu post ini ditulis, but now she has re-joined the workforce) , one is programmer - ye ke title ni.. more of a Consultant I guess.. (but I guess she is more than that, independent lady) and the last one, that would be me.. is based far far away from civilization, suffering but still got the chance to meet 'em, once in a while.

To all of my good friends, (I know they won't be reading this) but.. just to let you guys know, korang memang best, kawan aku dunia akhirat, aku takkan jumpa kawan cam korang lagi sampai bila2. With u guys, I don't have to be someone else, I am myself, and thanks for accepting me the way I am, thanks for all the memories, the friendship, everything. Glad that our husbands and friends , and glad that our babies are born on the same year..so they will continue our golden friendship...
Glad we met. You guys are all I ever need in a friend...

Got a rise?

Alhamdulillah. Just checked my latest payslip online and the figures have increased. Though it's nothing compared to my boss who gets additional RM40K, but still, Syukur Alhamdulillah. Rezeki Ilham & for both of us as well :-)

On the other note, Ilham is getting better but we still plan to take him to the Paed tonite. Mana tau his fever re-occurs. If he is fine, we can proceed with his last Triple A since he's already13 months tapi tak injek lagi yang 12 mths punye.

On a less interesting note, my cerdit card bills are increasing as well! Aiyo.. but what to do, I will never learnt my lesson. I've been spending like a crazy lady for the last 1 week teeheeeheee. But a woman gotta do what a woman gotta do, rite? For raya prep, things are almost ready. Uzey punye baju melayu je belum but I'm sure he doesn't wanna get a new pair since yang 2 pairs for Raya Haji ari tu pun baru sekali dua pakai. As for Ilham, he gets a new wardrobe!! Baju berlambak2. Good thing that he doesn't outgrow his baju fast, infact the ones he's still wearing now, baju for Newborn!

Don't have the mood to reply work-related email today. But I've gotta plan something for my upcoming assessment.

Signing off..

Continue.. (coz I still dont feel like being productive)

A manager from other dept asked me today "So, I heard u DAPAT transfer?" Gosh.. isn't weird that I DON'T know anything about it but people keep asking me that kind of question? This is the umpteenth time already, and I don't feel like giving a s*it bout it coz I'm tired of giving us hopes. There are so many things to be done in the office, and if I'm really being transferred, shouldn't anyone tell me so, so that I can plan ahead, finish whatever things I'm doing and at least try my best to leave something properly scheduled for the next, maybe, 1 year??

Seems that I can't keep track on things & I've no one to turn to. Ada superior pun useless. Aku tanya A dia jawab B. WTF?

Let's change to another topic...Ilham is actively walking now. When he wants to reach his toys, he intends to forget that he is not skillful yet, but he still walks to get 'em. Even when he wants to come to me for to quench his thirts, he walks! Padahal mama ngan dia dok sbelah2 je... :-)

He had a good time during our 6d/5n stay in Park R*yal. Petang2 gi swimming pool with Papa, and he enjoyed himself tremendously. Infact he didn't wanna come out when we wanted to towel-dry him. He is a now a pro at it. Muka rilek je bila letak dalam pelampung keta dia tu.

Abah came to stay with us for 2 nights, though he doesn't meet Abah often, he really 'clicks' with Tok Bah, bergurau2 and made funny face so that my dad tickles him.

Even so with Papa who came when we already checked out. Though lama tak jumpa, tried his best to impress Aki, tunjuk skills jalan n macam2 lagi.

Owh it's raining heavily outside. Hope it stops by the time I drive home. Don't like slippery road, tambah2 lak with B*ntulu's drivers yang bodo gila ni..

Signing off.. again..

Of Shopping & Paid Vacation

Time for updates. But before that, I am not feeling good today coz Ilham is having a fever and cold. He woke up so many times last night and mengamuk coz his nose is stuffed and he couldn't feed properly. Will visit the Paed before lunch and hope he will get better. Get well soon sayang!!

What have we done for the last 8 days..

1. Checked out M*tro member's day sale and bought toys, baju Ilham and a shirt for my dad. I even organized 3 trips, 1 prior to the first day sale, 2nd just to buy Ilham's stuff and 3rd just to buy my stuff. Bought a handbag for RM120, though Uzey doesn't really like its quality, but what the heck. Price was slashed to RM120 FROM RM469... 70% discounts beb.. so had to buy walaupun I must admit that I didn't really like the material too but I love the size/style/design. I can actually put Ilham's diapers, Magic Cup and all other items in that coz it's not so big and not so small either. My long term plan so that the handbag can be used during Raya hehe, takle I have to carry the oh-not-so-stylish backpack tu..

2. Went to Iset*n's first day sale as well, and gosh how I love their baju's collection! Infact they are much2 better than the ones they have at KLC* nye branch. The last time I was there was like years ago where I bought my first Docke*s. Since I went alone in the morning, had the chance to choose and fit the bajus first, managed to grab 3 shirts and a pair of work pants. Nice! Spent only RM200 for the 4 items, and when we went for the 2nd round after lunch, bought Ilham more bajus and managed to grab tshirts for my cousins as well. I love Hallmar*'s baby clothes. The material is so good and comfy. I'll try to find more for Ilham later.

3. Had Johnny's. I've been wanting to have it since the last time we had it at OU, but didn't really enjoyed myself coz there were too many of us. So we went there on Thursday evening, Ilham was such a good boy, he had some soup and egg tofu, and he even played with the smoke from the steamboat pot and letting us enjoyed our dinner peacefully. The dessert was good. Next time I'll order the other kinds of desserts, I hope to Go*gle the recipes to add to my collection.

4. Had Sw*nsens the nite before but I don't really like it, and I dont think I will visit them again. It's our 2nd time there, the first time was also years ago when we were still dating.

5. Had N*ndos the first night of our stay at P*rk Royal. While waiting for my dad to arrive.

6. Went to T*mes Square and had laksa @ L*ksa Shack with dad and Uzey, tak sedap and not worth the $$ spent.

7. Bought my auntie & uncle a Cocoa Mocha cake from Secre* Recipe. As a token of appreciation for letting us use their Merc :-)

Oh I did not mention anything 'bout my training, yah? Haha.. Nothing worth mentioning. But I managed to network with other Planning ppl from other OPUs. See if I can ask them for favours later! Tee.heeheehehhhhe

Life For Sale..duhh...

grrrrr
geramnya!! I updated the blog only to know later that it's not updated! I guess it got lost in the cyberspace..

anyway, I was yakking about the inability to refraining myself from shopping coz next week M*tro is having a sale and somemore we will be staying at the hotel just 2 minutes' walking distance from BB!!! adusss there goes my $-saving plan! Just by looking at their online flyers make me drool! So I guess Ilham is getting MORE new clothes, MORE toys, and Mama is getting new handbags and shoes! The Pierre Cardin sandal bought during JJ sale next month pun baru pakai sekali, dah nak beli lagi?? BAAAADDD GURRLLL....

but wat de heck, hehehe... I can go shop my heart out during the Preview day coz they are opened until 12 midnite. How good things can be? I've plans with my shopaholic-auntie, so here we come, MJ sale!

Oh and the other note, Ilham can walk now, at least for more than 5 steps. Tapi kaki dia takde brek so always terlajak and purposely falls in my arms. Yes, he still sways and sometimes he can't walk straight, but he is perfecting himself. By looking at him, I feel soooo damn proud! He never gives up, he shows lots of effort and courage and he's very strong-willed! He has also updated his vocab now, most of the times mumbling phrases as if he's talking to us, and most of the time when me & Uzey talk non-stop, he will 'say' something like "Mama, pleaseee la cakap ngan Ilham pulak.. stop yakking okay!!" haha.

Won't be updating for > 1 week coz we're leaving for KL tomorrow afternoon. I hope the meeting on Monday is gonna be very short. I don't intend to stay long with those guys! arghh.

Within 24 hours, I've received invitation to apply for vacant positions, one in KL and another in K*rtih. Well, there's no harm trying, rite? I'm sure the grass is GREENER at the other side... Forwarded my resume and hopefully when the time comes, we will leave this place, Insya Allah...

*I'm selling my Palm Tungsten T2 but since nobody's reading this blog, so I'll just keep the advert to myself lah..hehehe

~over & out~

I'm Going SHOPPING!!!!!

Gosh!
baru je mentioned something about refraining myself from shopping, tetiba lak M*tro ada sale next week and Member's Preview on the 19th, and next whole week I'll be staying at Parkroyal, only 3 minutes' walk to BBP! Aiyooo there goes my $$$! Wishful thinking betulla! Seems that I'll go crazy over the bargains! Infact I've 'aimed' for so many items just by looking at their online flyers!! Well Ilham, looks like your stock baju will be added, coz I luurve M*tro nye collection of baju2 budak kecik! And also not forgetting my handbags.. and shoes... urghh I bought a pair of Pierre Cardin sandals just last month and tu pun belum hilang bau kedai lagi, and now I'm targetting for more???? Gile gile...

God God please save me from the 'disaster' (and yet deep inside I feel like jumping with joy!!!) hahahaha

In 2 days...

Yeay!
I am so excited! Just purchased the tickets online , we are going to KK to celebrate our 3rd wedding anniversary! We were there for our honeymoon and after 3 years, we’ll relive our memories but this time around we have Ilham with us, so it’s even more meaningful. Abah and Mama will also join us, so that’s even much more exciting! I had a good deal on that, though it’s gonna cause some hassle for us to drive to Miri first before taking the flight outbound to KK, but I guess it’s well worth it to pay just RM70 for return ticket per person. Since the trip is in September, I'm praying hard that the plan will turn out smoothly.


On other note, one of the guys in the meeting mentioned something about me to be transferred to P**LIN next year. But I didn't say anything back to them coz I'm tired of putting too much hope. I've done that and it sucks. Though deep inside my heart felt like bursting, sape taknak balik Kertih beb??!! Hopefully whatever they said are not bulls*it only.


We're going to KL on Saturday. Again?! 2nd trip in 2 weeks' time for me & Ilham. Infact, the gap was not even 2 weeks, we returned on 6th and will be going again on 15th. Pengsan pack and unpack barang. Luckily Uzey is coming with us so I"M GLAD! At least tak payah pack sendiri hehehe


Plans in KL? Farewell/gathering @ F*zie's, visit my auntie at Hosp. P*trajaya. Hope I can refrain myself from shopping, but ..TOUGH LUCK....

So husband u keje ape?

I hate this question, but what I hate even more, is the word househusband. It makes me look like I’m treating my husband as a slave, it sounds ‘uncool’ and I feel bad just by hearing the word. I prefer the term stay-at-home-dad, infact when people ask me what my husband does for a living, I’d say "Oh, he is a stay-at-home-dad’ .

We even bought a book on SAHD and it’s very good. The idea has been in the West for so long and I guess the writer, Mr Peter something is brilliant to make the ‘profession’ sounds interesting and cool. It IS a profession, isn’t it? Coz for me, given a choice, I’d rather not be a SAHM.

Sorry Ilham, but Mama needs to go to work to get $$ so that I can buy you nice things :-)

15th Sept ni, genaplah 2 tahun Uzey jadi SAHD. I mean, dad for 1 year + and he is a pro at it. Compared to me, he is much better when it comes to Ilham. But, well, no, I am not ashamed having him to stay at home while I go to work. I feel proud and blessed coz my baby is well taken care of. They read books together, watch Barney together, play & learn non-stop and Ilham is in the best hands when I go to work. Sapa tak happy? I don’t have to think about accidents at the daycare, tak payah risau pasal HFMD, tak payah risau kalau kena balik lambat and childminder tinggal Ilham sorang2, tak payah risau pasal kena dera, coz Uzey gives his 110% to Ilham.

It’s just that, sometimes we think of ... Well..things, money-wise. I feel bad Uzey can’t pursue his dreams, he can’t be in the career that he loves so much, he has to be stucked at home waiting for D-Day when my boss says "Okay , I’ll release you, please find a place in another OPU" which is like... Helllooo.... Macam mimpi je la kan, given my condition now dengan b*ss yang cam t********t tu....

Ilham, when you grow up, and you join your friend’s conversation on "bibik, nanny, pengasuh, maid, kakak, orang gaji, whatsoever" you can proudly say "I WAS TAKEN CARE BY MY OWN DAD SINCE I WAS 1 DAY OLD UNTIL (fill in the blank) " hopefully u can say until 1 ½ year ke.. 2 years ke... And you must be proud of that okay. Coz nothing can ever replace Papa’s love for you..

You should be thankful coz he willingly offered himself to take care of you and you must know that he received a job offer on the 3rd day after you were born & you were still hospitalized, but he rejected the offer coz you are the only thing that matter to him. You are one lucky baby, sayang, coz whatever he does, he always think of you, he misses you so much when you are not around, he treats you to so many nice things, he takes you (and Mama jugaklah) to nice places, he keeps up with you when you are very lasak, climbing non-stop etc, he worries about you when you didn’t wanna eat, smile, when you cry, he even sembahyang hajat everytime he feels you are not feeling well...

After all, Ilham, we love you and you are the luckiest son in the world.

Stoopid Monday

i hate everything that happened today, everybody that I talked to in the office (except H**li) , i hate my colleagues, my superior, my subordinates, that b*stard downstairs, i hate 'em all. I even hate the guy-who-is-gonna transfer... Oh, and that b*stard, how he managed to get 1 , can anybody tell me?

I was warned by HRDF coz the stoopid trainee submitted same claim twice and the lady threathened to sue the company for making false claims, I was scolded by a stoopid f*cker for rejecting his staff trg application which was way back in April, i am devastated coz suddenly the girl who wanted to swap place with me was not released by her boss coz she's oledi sitting on E* position, I am pissed by the stoopid J****** who doesn't know how to say thanks to people who do things for him and saved his fat a** , i am supposed to leave but *Y won't release me for the next 3-4 years, wtf? My god this list can go on and on and on.

Thank God for Ilham & Uzey.

I hate this place, this office, this workstation. I hate 'em all. Please God lemme outta here. Fullstop.

Weekend at its best

Had a good weekend. Not great, only good. I’ll consider it great if we were in TM or Kertih. Even that so, I still enjoyed every moments spent with my 2 precious darlings.

Spent half of Saturday lazying around, Uzey helped with the laundry (as usual) and I played my part as a good wife by calling Pizza Hut for delivery hehehe

Only on Sunday I cooked for him. Itu pun after he has gone to buy the fresh fishes and me and Ilham only came downstairs at 11 am! We had nasi lemak for brunch and even for dinner. It was gooood.. Uzey prepared the rice and I was in charge of the anchovies sambal, which turned out to be very very delicious we decided to sell nasi lemak for extra income!

It’s Monday, and in 7 day’s time we’ll be off to KL for my last SKG training, and hopefully I’ll be able to sit for the assessment, my last resort to get outta here!

Ilham, is now trying very hard learning to walk! Infact he manages more than 5 steps at a time now, though he still sways a lot and he looked so funny and cute at the same time... Being unstable, I’m sure he’ll be tired practising but knowing him, I know he will keep trying to be good and to prefect his walking skills..

And since Kl trip, he now says "MMMMmamamamamama" everytime he wants milk, and professionally will try to pull my baju up. Oh my... Hope he doesn’t do this in public!
Looking forward for the weekend to spend time with my darlings again..

My perfect weekend would be like this..

If I’m here with Uzey & Ilham
Wake up late
Bathe & dress Ilham up
Brunch with whatever thing I can whip up in the kitchen
Pegi pasar/ kedai for our supplies
Lepak watch TV and play with Ilham
Cooking & have late lunch
Afternoon nap (rarely!)
Car ride (when applicable)
Cuddling Ilham, Ilham & Ilham

If I’m at my parents’ with Uzey & Ilham
Breakfast outside
Pasar
Eat mama’s cooking
Eat, eat, eat
Visit relatives
Lepak & watch TV

If I’m in Kertih with Uzey & Ilham
Wake up to Papa’s voice :-p
Lepak & watch TV
Pantai
Keropok lekor, sotong goreng tepung & air nyior..yummehhhh!!

When a door close on me, another one opens..

Ilham really freaked us last nite. Tetiba tak nak minum susu, I mean like tetiba refused me. He never act like that before. Nak tido, tapi tak nak susu? Hellooo... so unlike Mr Ilham that we know... Fortunately dia nak susu balik just before he felt asleep. Gosh.. jangan buat mama cam tu ... papa has already warned "Papa tak nak turun buat susu kat Ilham malam2 okayyyy"


On a more pathetic note, I found out that my boss is not releasing me though there's already oen replacement, WILLINGLY to come over. Bullshit. I pray that he rots in hell for doing that to us. How could these people do this? When I mean these people, they are inclusive of his side-kick yang suka cari pasal and anti- org Semenanjung. Bastards are aplenty nowadays, don't u think so??

Oh Ilham please forgive for having the above para in your blog.

Nasib baik it's already Friday and I don't have to think about these stoopid thing for the next 2 days!

KL trip

We are safely back in Bintulu, though the flight was delayed for almost 20 minutes but we managed to reach BTU before 5.30 pm. Uzey was already waiting, with a big grin on his face. I’m sure he misses us so much! Ilham was such a little angel, behaving himself throughout the 5 days we were in KL, eventhough his dad was not around..

Day 1
Had a smooth journey, luckily Mai was travelling with us. Ilham was behaving himself, played in the flight, crumbled some cookies, smiling to strangers and even played with them and when we arrived in KLIA, Imi was already there to fetch us. Ilham slept during the 2 hour journey to Ayah Ngah’s. That nite we went to Giant to buy some supplies, Domino’s and durian, that we really craved for!
Called it a nite around 12 midnite.

Day 2
Woke up late, put Ilham back to sleep and made sure he gets enuff rest since we plan to go out in the afternoon. Went to OU and co-incidentally the are organizing Barney’s Beach Party! So Ilham finally had a chance to meet Barney personally, in real life! Bought him a straw-cup with Barney’s face, went to Toys R Us and bought his crayon and pelampung tangan, plus drawer locks that Uzey requested. Also bought a Su Doku book for Uzey. Had lunch at Nando’s and Ilham had Baskin Robbins. Ilham was behaving himself and looked like he had fun! Mama, abah and becik arrived around 9 pm. Ilham slept at 1.15 am.

Day 3
Woke up at 6 am, ride the cab with Abah and finished my course only at 5pm. Reached home at 6.30 pm. Felt tired, but still managed to go to Midvalley and mama did some shopping. Didn’t but anything and had McD.

Day 4
Drove to Permata. My first time driving on the route and first time in 5 years driving in KL! Luckily I took Cik Ngah’s automatic Kancil, saved me the hassle of changing gears every now and then. Smooth journey & training but I hate the kerek trainer. Finished the exam at 5pm and reached home at 6pm. Went tp Putrajaya.

Day 5
Mama and Becik took the ERL with us to KLIA. Flight was at 2 pm, smooth journey as well and Ilham was, again, an angel.
Returned home and finally all of us are together again!!!!!